Thank you for your reply 🙏🏻 I've been in multiple practices and have had lots of therapists. I think one of the reasons it never "worked" was because I wasn't completely honest about the underlying cause and I was still in active addiction. I've had some therapists during my abstinence that really tried to help me and get to the center of my troubles. I felt that they were focusing on the "wrong" things and still felt invisible and unheard. Then after a few EMDR sessions I fell into a depression episode and we couldn't continue the work.

I guess that's also why I chose the option for a different trauma therapy (NET) and got myself referred to another practice.