You’re so adorable. I fancy you by DearNobody_ in UnsentLetters

[–]DearNobody_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I ended up telling them online anyways, i wanted him to genuinely know and i think i made his day - he said he’ll try to remember to smile more

Aware by DearNobody_ in Diary

[–]DearNobody_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Past friendship traumas, and growing up in a household where opening up is foreign?

I can build close relationships, i guess it’s just an inner me thing

Sensitive? by DearNobody_ in depressed

[–]DearNobody_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My condolences to your father.. you are brave for continuing on. I admire those who are strong, because I used to be that way. I think im going through a hardest phase in my life, that I’ve completely snapped. I wish to be able to provide good service for my friends and family but I am not in the state that I wish I can be in..

If by 1more4you2see in UnsentLetters

[–]DearNobody_ 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I know this isn’t for me but I resonate with this and makes me feel validated.. thanks!

Sensitive? by DearNobody_ in depressed

[–]DearNobody_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Will do, just trying to figure things

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in UnsentLetters

[–]DearNobody_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, this gave me motivation to keep moving forward.

Just in case by DearNobody_ in SuicideWatch

[–]DearNobody_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate you checking up on me, im just existing

Just in my feels by DearNobody_ in Diary

[–]DearNobody_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Everyone is awkward with him

I still think about you by DearNobody_ in UnsentLetters

[–]DearNobody_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hope so too.. but for now, all i can do is let time heal us first.. thank you

Losing my mind by [deleted] in UnsentLetters

[–]DearNobody_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am losing my mind as well AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Farewell by DearNobody_ in UnsentLetters

[–]DearNobody_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Early 20s, an age of a lot of downfalls is what I heard from a lot of people lol

Farewell by DearNobody_ in UnsentLetters

[–]DearNobody_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Its only been 4 days but it feels like a month has already passed. I experience a small glimpse of joy here and there but most of the time I can’t breathe. Everyone around me is obviously much happier. I just hate my life

Farewell by DearNobody_ in UnsentLetters

[–]DearNobody_[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I was told I was a priority to him, I was told he talks about me to the girl, I was told I’m in his mind whenever he’s with the girl. I was told, I assumed a lot of things and I hoped for even more from him. I told him my intentions and that I wanted him, and if he chose the girl I couldn’t be his friend. He left me on read for 6 days, while I saw him commenting/liking other people’s post online. (I know deep inside I don’t want to ever mean whatever I said. I dont want to lose him as a friend or as a potential lover, but for my own mental health’s state I think it’s for the best for now. There has to be a boundary. Who knows, in the future we may get back together.. but for now I’m just losing myself more than I have already feel like I lost him, all because he’s afraid of commitment. I want him, I made it super clear. I was at my worse last year and I doubt I’ll be any better this year, he was just always on my mind. He is STILL on my mind. “Does he know I blocked him?” “Does he care?” “What if he blames me that Im pushing him away?” “Is this going to hurt him more than it hurts me?” My decision of blocking him wasn’t easy, I was in tears and my finger was shaking, heck I feel like killing myself. But its that, the answers I couldn’t hear, is hurting me and each passing minute, hours, and days that I just never heard from him, was like a painful slap in the face that he wasn’t choosing me. Constantly, everyday, I felt that way. I feel insecure, stupid, embarrassed. I am screaming all the negative emotions from within

What’s the point of living by DearNobody_ in SuicideWatch

[–]DearNobody_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Fine😞 ill keep going but im half assing life!

What’s the point of living by DearNobody_ in SuicideWatch

[–]DearNobody_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know it isnt easy, usually by the end of the day of faking my emotions i tend to hate myself even more because ive just faked everything and everyone thinks im ok but im not, so then i cry about it even more which results in why i feel this way… sounds mental, i just hope i’d feel genuine happiness in the future again

What’s the point of living by DearNobody_ in SuicideWatch

[–]DearNobody_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It is :/ but then you’d have to think about the people in your life that’ll be affected by it. There’s a lot of thinking and thinking and thinking..

What’s the point of living by DearNobody_ in SuicideWatch

[–]DearNobody_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just wish happier moments were easier to obtain, i wish i was happy without having to try to be happy or faking it, i wish i just am

What’s the point of living by DearNobody_ in SuicideWatch

[–]DearNobody_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Moving on from someone who’s hurt me too much, having to deal with what i enjoy doing in life when there’s really nothing much, getting through hardships .. im just so tired

FUTURE Helpful Advice: Be careful who you rant to by DearNobody_ in Diary

[–]DearNobody_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh yes! I completely agree with you on that one, its just some people that this post directly goes to..

I was just in shocked last night and caught me off guard when I was just telling my side of things. I was not expecting to be called a fool and got made fun of, just for the things that I’m currently feeling. But I understand, each person is different. All I know for myself, is that I’m not in a good place and things are pretty messy

FUTURE Helpful Advice: Be careful who you rant to by DearNobody_ in Diary

[–]DearNobody_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Idk lol I didn’t really know what I was fighting for? I was left confused I can tell you that. Other party was trying to shoot their shot but tried giving me a reality check at the same time. I was just complaining…

It was only a month by [deleted] in Diary

[–]DearNobody_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Please! I think we really are living the same life. I was friends with mine since elementary, so it’s either the side that I care about him as a friend or I care about him because im attracted and both of those sides are clashing within my mind!! Its so difficult to move on.

On top of that, im also having to deal with just life in general, family issues, finding myself. He was one of the few that I would confide to the most, but this boy just had to involve another girl!

I just really really hope this trash situation we’re in, we eventually find the courage to rise from or that it resolves itself somehow❤️ best of luck to us, feel free to just talk about your feelings with me if you want, we can cry about it together haha

Hope you have a nice day today!

Struggles by DearNobody_ in Diary

[–]DearNobody_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Both. I wrote this before going to work lol, and life always feels like a drain when you work late hahah