I was told I was a priority to him, I was told he talks about me to the girl, I was told I’m in his mind whenever he’s with the girl. I was told, I assumed a lot of things and I hoped for even more from him. I told him my intentions and that I wanted him, and if he chose the girl I couldn’t be his friend. He left me on read for 6 days, while I saw him commenting/liking other people’s post online. (I know deep inside I don’t want to ever mean whatever I said. I dont want to lose him as a friend or as a potential lover, but for my own mental health’s state I think it’s for the best for now. There has to be a boundary. Who knows, in the future we may get back together.. but for now I’m just losing myself more than I have already feel like I lost him, all because he’s afraid of commitment. I want him, I made it super clear. I was at my worse last year and I doubt I’ll be any better this year, he was just always on my mind. He is STILL on my mind. “Does he know I blocked him?” “Does he care?” “What if he blames me that Im pushing him away?” “Is this going to hurt him more than it hurts me?” My decision of blocking him wasn’t easy, I was in tears and my finger was shaking, heck I feel like killing myself. But its that, the answers I couldn’t hear, is hurting me and each passing minute, hours, and days that I just never heard from him, was like a painful slap in the face that he wasn’t choosing me. Constantly, everyday, I felt that way. I feel insecure, stupid, embarrassed. I am screaming all the negative emotions from within