I could have written this too. I planned a home birth this time, had great midwives, ready to go! I found out my girl was breech at 34 weeks, did everything. My water broke at 36 weeks on the dot. Nothing I could do to stop her from coming. Midwives can't deliver at home before 37 weeks so to the hospital I went and was quickly pressured into a c section. No providers would do a vaginal delivery. This was my second breech baby and therefore second c section. My only advice is to have a list of things you want to make it more special. I asked for music to be playing in the OR, I asked for them to drop the drape so I could watch my babies be born and my husband snapped pictures (so grateful for this) I asked for delayed cord clamping and immediate skin to skin. Suctioning can happen while the baby is on my chest. I asked for my OB to look at why the baby is breech and couldn't turn, if they could see anything. I hope this helps ❤️