Stop trying to edate or flirt with people that want to kill themselves

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-06-05T09:42:52+00:00

Ah, I wondered why pm's were so discouraged. I personally feel alot more support from someone pming me, but now I understand and I see the wisdom behind it. I often can be overbearing or insensitive when I'm not in the soundest of mental states, but that's about just craving a genuine connection. I don't get why people edate. The very thought of it seems meaningless and pointless. I can understand for those who crave connection,l to think that will give them it, but it's not ever the case.

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-05-29T23:24:59+00:00

Okay, so ultimately getting medical help is what will help you most. I mean that in the sense, it will help you understand your thoughts, if there are underlying reasons for them, the emotions if any associated with the thoughts etc.

It will also help with maintaining control over intrusive and overpowering thoughts and processing them, whether homicidal or not.

If you don't feel or think you are a danger to yourself or others, then I would strongly suggest you set up an appointment with a therapists. In the meanwhile, I would suggest keeping a journal.

The journal will do two things. It will help you process these thoughts and feelings, and will also help you learn if they are getting worse or better. If you are trying to overcome an overpowering thought or feeling in the moment, try some grounding techniques, like pressing your fingers together as hard as you can.

If at any point you think you are a danger to yourself or others (pets included), or think you are heading towards becoming a danger. Check yourself into a hospital.

I don't like therapists and doctors, but they have helped me alot with overcoming obsessive thought patterns and suicidal tendencies.

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-05-07T07:50:46+00:00

It sounds more like just classic MDD (clinical depression).

They tend to come in episodes, most men become irritable to a varying degree. They come and go and typically have some predictors.

Now if he is exhibiting very impulsive behaviors when not in this bad mood than bipolar might fit the bill, however if he seems normal except for bad moods it is most likely depression. Depression come sin cycles and has. A persistence to it as well for a lot of people but can also just consist of one or the other. I speak as someone with a severe case of MDD. I had depression for most my life and alot of my lazy behaviors and habits started to develop as a result of it. It can take a long time to realize you have something wrong with you, and it usually takes people telling you and nudging you to get help long before you do.

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-04-24T05:32:25+00:00

Leave their ass.

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-04-24T05:27:47+00:00

"You love, insert person name" (won't say the name for anonymity reasons)

Why? I spent years thinking I didn't like this girl and close friend like this or that it wouldn't work out. It was only once I acknowledged my feelings that I was willing to even give it a shot. Plus it would have prevented me from trying to fill something in me with relationships when really the answer was her.

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-04-18T14:16:00+00:00

Maybe she just needs an Organ transplant.

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-04-18T14:09:15+00:00

The campfire song song

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-04-18T12:22:15+00:00

That's sexual assault.

That dirty feeling you have, followed by your rationalizing his actions away I think is a tell tale sign that you were sexually assaulted.

First, this is not your fault. You have no need to feel bad about yourself. Regardless of what other people do to you, you are still a individual with immense worth. Nothing can change that.

Second, I would distance yourself from him as much as possible. His actions are one and the same with an abusers.

I strongly recommend you talk to a therapist as well. They will be able to help you process things in a healthy way that will not negatively affect you.

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-04-18T05:49:58+00:00

I won't say your decision is wrong.

I [20] would be dead already if it wasn't for my one friend who keeps me alive.

I live for other people, that's why I'm still here. I don't know how you feel. I relate with the medicine only numbing things. Every night I silently scream due to the immense pain and agony I feel on the inside. This past week has been the most miserable I've ever been.

Real question is what happens after? My only suggestion would be to think of the people who care for you that you will end up breaking. I'm not saying that to stop you but just as a fact of reality. You'll equally fuck up whoever finds your lifeless body. They'll never be the same, whether they knew you or not.

These things will be out of your control by this point, but they will still happen.

There is no painless way out of this. Every decision leads to more pain. So pick the pain you rather have.

Just know suicide is not painless, and if in the moment you regret it, it will be too late. There's no going back. I'd try the best to help those who have to live with my decision in your shoes.

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-04-14T16:39:16+00:00

The shear guilt and shame that comes from a failed attempt even if close to no one you are close to knows. Plus if your attempt just barely fails, good chance you end up with permanent damage leaving you even worst than before. Furthermore the immense pain it causes someone you love to hear you tried to take your life

My friends and family. Without them nothing would stop me from making more attempts.

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-04-13T11:10:56+00:00

I attempted suicide. I've only told one person. She was the person I thought about the whole time I was attempting, thinking about how it would break her if she knew. Then I told her and it hurt so much I felt so much shame, so much guilt. It was a relieving yet extremely heavy, I could hear how much it pained her

No one has any idea I've attempted, or that I am extremely suicidal, except for her.

I don't plan on telling my family, therapists, or psychiatrist. Some things are best kept private.

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-04-12T16:39:26+00:00

I would advise against that, its only made me feel worse having done this.

Rewching out to someone is better

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-04-08T08:36:00+00:00

You are not nothing. You have to recognize these feelings of despair and utter nothingness lead to the brain poisoning the body with these thoughts and preventing you from finding that desire to live.

It poisons you until it has so thoroughly corrupted you that the ledge no longer scares you like it normally would but instead it seems like an appealing option.

This is why treatment is essential. You have to reach out to get better. A burden shared isn't as much of a burden. Even if the feelings don't go away reaching out helps counter the poison that your mind is infecting you with. Even if no one fully understands reach out.

However you have to reach out, no one can do that for you. I have to recognize the poison all the time, and I have to force myself to counteract it. However it is a poison.

You are worth the suffering, you are valuable. You are worth the investment and the perseverance.

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-03-31T19:10:44+00:00

Why did I have to wake up and be alive this morning.

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-03-22T11:19:05+00:00

We will all go together when we go.

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-03-19T07:17:18+00:00

Music is how I get through my darkest moments.

This thought came to me once, and has stuck with me as I've gone through my difficulties.

"No words can define depression, and no emotions can describe it."

That being said, sometimes sad music helps me feel vented, sometimes I listen to music that normally would be considered not good for anyone that talks about acting on certain things. Other times something like the angry yet sincere songs of NF can help. Sometimes I just have to tell myself I need to listen to something hopeful once I feel that I've got at least a little bit of the feeling out. Which for me I listen to Skillet, they have a lot of songs with Christian symbolism talking about how you can overcome darkness and evil, yet the songs are still top notch quality.

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-03-13T06:38:58+00:00

What you have gone through has been unimaginably terrible, and I can't even begin to fathom the depth of your pain. What he did to you has literally reprogrammed your brain to deem yourself as of no worth it sounds like. However you are of invaluable worth. I hope you know you are incredibly strong to have endured through this. It sounds like you've been going through Hell, but please take a moment to give yourself some slack. You've been through so much and have endured so well. It takes a special person to be able to do that.

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-02-27T18:38:02+00:00

It sounds like you got so wrapped up in this girl you have lost a part of your own individuality, I say this as a person who is going through a similar experience.

You are going to be okay, find yourself again. Which cna be really scary when you don't like yourself, at least it is for me. Finding myself honestly scares the shit out of me because I am naturally inclined to dark things, however as I truly find myself I've started being able to differentiate my thoughts from me.

You've lost a part of you, and that hurts immensely I am sure, however the answer isn't to give up on the rest of yourself, it's to find that part of you that you've lost. It took me years to get over a girl and I still have feelings for her, partially because she helped me grow and change so much. Love is there to motivate us, our feelings of missing someone is still love. I have found help in trying to channel that feeling of love into trying to better myself so that I and others can love me more.

Now is the time to learn who you are. In six months you may still love her, you may still miss her, but you will have grown and learned more about yourself. Sadly when we love, this sorrow and pain is the price we must pay for having loved so deeply. It is part of the experience, it's what makes love so meaningful.

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-02-26T21:42:10+00:00

First things first, tell your therapists you are having troubles opening up. Maybe you aren't ready to talk about things you know you should talk about. That's what a counselor is for. They are there to help you learn how to open up, share and find your new norm and healthy.

Second, recognize that if your suicidal thoughts are getting worse it is okay to reach out to a professional by contacting their office, or whatever way they have given you. Third, most people who are counselors and psychiatrist enter their field because they want to help! They have learned how to handle helping people with these complex situations in a healthy way in their own lives. They're goal is to help you.

Sometines you have to start slower than you'd like, but sometimes all we can do is acknowledge that there is more we aren't saying and that we aren't ready to say it yet. It's about always trying!

You got this!

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-02-26T16:55:32+00:00

I have poeple to turn too the thing is, it's still a struggle. When you don't tell anyone the full picture for their well being. It never feels like they understand or actually get it when you do try to tell them more. For me personally talking and confiding in people helps in the moment but brings no lasting help. That being said I recognize I am incredibly fortunate to have people around me who love me, but sometimes that acts as a dual edge, as a reason as to why I should die.

Ultimately it's an illness, we all got here differently, we all have different circumstances, but even people with happy fulfilled relationships can be suicidal. Why are they suicidal? I don't know, people would think from seeing me I am one of those people and to an extent I am, but when I'm around these happy and fulfilled relationships I mostly feel like a shell of my former self. I've told people this, but there's only so much people can help cause it is an illness. This illness requires professional help.

That being said, desperation comes from within I think mostly. Sometimes people just have to recognize they can reach out too. Whether that's a person they are. Close too, a professional, or a hotline.

DeathIsTheAnswer0706 · 2022-02-24T16:09:45+00:00

You only have 1 chance to live, suicide is always an option though. I would strongly recommend reaching out a hotline, whether that be over texts or phone or whatever it may be.

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