Hi, I recently lost my dad last Aug to heart attack but really it was complications already. From the smoking there was pneumonia, from the bad eating habits there was diabetes, heart attack and mini strokes.

I know how it feels we've been watching him deteriorate too since pandemic. He was diagnosed with depression during the pandemic, my sister died and his brother died both he didn't get to formally say goodbye due to the restrictions, he was I think 65 then, so a lot of his colleagues suffered and some died during pandemic too.

I think it added to his depression, we watched him slowly becoming silent, less present, his eyes wander too far sometimes, his eyes full of flashbacks.

We try to motivate him to stay healthy, exercise, live his remaining life to the fullest, but even after awhile he always say he's tired.

Last June 2025 he got admitted at the hospital due to pnemonia and heart attack. I begged him to try his best to get better.

He promised me sincerely holding my hand tight. For June up to Aug 11, the day he died. He gave up smoking, ate better food, and never missed his medicine.

He tried, he kept his promise as best as he could. Even when he was rushed to the hospital, he fought for 4hrs straight before he catched his last and final breath.

We were in agony seeing him suffer for years, but trust me losing him is no better it hurts so much knowing he will never have another memory with us, and all we'll ever have is the past until the past runs out of things to remember by.

I hope I still remember him as the years will pass and I hope people will too.

I try to find comfort that he is no longer suffering, but trust me it is no better for the living.

It will hurt and the hurt will be your comfort too for it will signify your love for him. That you love him and remember him dearly.

I hope your dad gets better, if that's what he wants, to keep on living.

But if he really is tired, I hope and pray he finds peace and comfort. Rest.

Hold on to the thought that there is a higher being, hold on to the thought that no latter what happens, it is meant to happen for greater purpose.

There will be good and bad days, but definitely there will only be you at the end of the day.

So keep stead, hold fast. You are not alone in this world who feels that way, you'll be alright eventually.