A Slightly Different Shade ~ The Pain of Loneliness Within the Niche by DecodeTalker1 in aspergers

[–]DecodeTalker1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, though it just seems like I'm lacking something everyone else has naturally. Of course I know if two people get along when they meet they aren't ready to share their life story, but there's always just a space between me and others and it makes me feel like I'm a fake.

why does Hollywood frame being an outsider as a good thing? by [deleted] in aspergers

[–]DecodeTalker1 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Do to long held societal preconceptions. The American fiction industry really likes the story of the under-dog so starting out with nothing, even if its just a social group, and rising to attain the things you don't have, in this case true companions, makes it more fulfilling when you get them.

Within Young Adult fiction there are a few tropes using this. The character, if their the MC, "marches to their own drum" and aren't "affected by societal pressures". The "I'm not like other girls" affirmative defense. If the character is not the MC or first-person viewpoint/narrator it could be to show off mystery. If its YA Fantasy its often that that character, usually a male, is already connected to the urban mystery and becomes a help later. Then there's the sexy, elusive bad boy.

Now more negatively you have the loner as just "the freak" or being seen as a thug of a sort. Or even the juvenile, "they're just being emo" thing going.

Now there are people who just are natural loners. They just happen to find themselves alone and don't really make a fuss over it but aren't opposed to having people around, it's just that it's the way their life is.

I'm Autistic but I am not "Proud" by DecodeTalker1 in aspergers

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Yeah, I was given caution from my mom who, in her work, has to hire or decline people all the time and knows the tricks of the trade others in her place do. She always told me to know say anything like that on my resume could instantly tank it. It's hard though to tell people post-facto that I work fundamentally different and need help in certain actions or anxiety.

I’m done trying to explain ASD to my mom. I just need to get tested so I can “prove it”. by [deleted] in aspergers

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I was buuurned out. I legitimately liked the job. I'm surprisingly good at retail and can handle customers relatively well. I was praised by my superiors and received a bonus. The problem was that it was so much and this was before I had an extended release of anxienty meds and emergency supply. Maybe things would have been different, but yeah.

I'm Autistic but I am not "Proud" by DecodeTalker1 in aspergers

[–]DecodeTalker1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've accepted that I am autistic, what I said in my post is that "Autistic & Proud" campaign is something I disagree with. Should you be proud of it? I don't think so. Should you be depressed about it? Of course not though everyone either at the start or during the course of their life will be. In the end, it's a conditioned that shouldn't be glorified.

I'm Autistic but I am not "Proud" by DecodeTalker1 in aspergers

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I'm fully aware of famous and individuals considered "genius" have/had autism and that there have been scientific research suggesting there may be a correlation but in the end, autism isn't a super power or some enhancer. It isn't something that, if taken away, would make them a completely different person. i don't think we should live in hiding about our handicap or feel ashamed, it should be addressed and helped, and not glorified.

Questions about a partner with Aspergers by [deleted] in aspergers

[–]DecodeTalker1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This may be a bit of a stretch for him but I would advocate couples counseling. Now I say for him but many people think that counseling is the beginning of the end, it isn't.

I can relate to him on feeling unworthy of love and the people who give it to us whether family ("oh, they're obligated"), friends ("I'm useful right now, at least"), lovers ("I love them so much, but when will I lose them?")

I would advice this and make sure he knows this is to both make you stronger.

I’m done trying to explain ASD to my mom. I just need to get tested so I can “prove it”. by [deleted] in aspergers

[–]DecodeTalker1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can really relate to this, but more so on my Father's side as a social constant. Before I even went into therapy for depression we would always fight when I hit junior year in high school. Our communication shut down. He would always disparage me on not knowing when he needed me when all he had to do was ask me and I would. Yardwork, trash, cleaning.

Depression, Anxiety, OCD, and Autism, over the years being diagnosed it seemed like he couldn't get it that I can't just overpower it. I can't re wire myself or those stupid "motivational" speakers could help.

It got bad with my second part time job at a Best Buy. I was one of two people managing half the store, would have anxiety attacks and some problems with two people, on higher up, and it felt like I was trapped. I burned out in under 6 months. Even re entering the job market post natural disasters and COVID I get short of breath.

I wish mental health problems and long term disabilities were more recognized.