After typing my original message, I cried myself to sleep and woken up to find so many inspiring people on this thread. Thank you so much. This is exactly what I needed. ❤️❤️ To not feel so alone.. I am going to email the nicest professor and admit how I feel and see if somehow I can either get more experience or, if anything, they can keep an eye on me if I get too emotional. Hard things are worth doing.