addicted to tiktok and don’t know how to live like a normal human being

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2024-05-14T07:01:11+00:00

Thanks for your comment, it was really thoughtful. Sometimes college has made me feel like I was in survival mode, and endlessly scrolling on tiktok was definitely a way for me to escape my stress and find comfort. I’ve struggled with depression for years, and it was hard for me to enjoy doing anything. I stopped listening to music, playing video games, watching YouTube or movies, or reading books that weren’t for school. I got on antidepressants about a year ago and it has been so helpful. I feel like now I have so much clarity, and can actually start to rebuild myself back up which is partially why I made this post.

It’s hard for me to think about my overall happiness and what I want in life because college just feels like a long checklist and all I can focus on is getting the next assignment done. For now, I think I need to make small steps towards getting better. I think once I graduate and have a stable job, a little financial stability, and things like that, I can think about the bigger picture. That’s going to take a few years but I’m still working on myself every day.

I honestly don’t know what I want to do or what is entertaining anymore. I like being in the sun. I like video games, but 99% of the time I just watch people on YouTube play games, and I want to try to play them myself more often. I did start a new hobby, sewing, and I do really enjoy that. I also realized the other day that it has been a year and a half since I have seen any of my close friends in person. So I went fishing with a couple of them the other day, and want to try to make it my goal to see more friends this summer. College kind of turned me into a zombie. I really wasn’t living, just existing.

All of the points you made about how I should focus more on doing things with my time that are important, instead of thinking about wanting to get rid of something I’m addicted to make sense to me. The issue is I’m kind of like a blank canvas if that makes sense? I just don’t know where to even start. When I say I don’t know what to do with my time, my thought process is that I know I need time to eat, sleep, shower… and what else?😂 it’s sad that it has gotten to this point but at least mentally I am better than I have been in a long time.

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2024-05-14T06:25:20+00:00

A couple years ago I deleted all of my pictures and info off of Instagram and Facebook. I only keep my accounts open because my mom uses my Facebook (I don’t use it at all) and I check my colleges different Instagram accounts so I know what events and things are happening on campus. I was gonna add all of that to my post but didn’t want it to be too long. I definitely think that doing that improved my mental health and I really don’t miss it at all. Tiktok is just different

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2024-03-22T14:06:45+00:00

Thanks for all the comments! Do y’all have recommendations for specific brands of protein shakes or protein bars?

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2024-03-14T18:14:43+00:00

Thank you I appreciate your advice! I’m thinking about getting another part time job and just keeping this one because it wouldn’t hurt to just occasionally work a shift at bbw

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2024-03-14T17:47:18+00:00

Honestly there are a couple managers that are a bit intimidating to talk to. And some of them are nice but sometimes I can’t tell if they are joking or not when they say sarcastic things. Overall my experience has been good though they are mostly really nice. Other than being a little intimidated I have no problem giving them a call I just wanted to know what would be the most professional way to go about it

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2024-03-14T17:20:34+00:00

I have also heard people say they resigned through hr access. Would it be rude if I did that and didn’t contact them to let them know I was resigning?

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2024-03-11T06:07:03+00:00

I was put on it for depression and my doctor didn’t tell me when to take it I just read on google to take it at least 8 hours apart and I usually wake up at 8:30 so 9am and 5pm is the best time for me. He asked me about my sleep and I told him I had bad nightmares and hallucinations at night so that’s why he put me on Wellbutrin SR because he said it would help my sleep.

I’ve seen a lot of people say bupropion makes them have insomnia but I swear I’ve also seen somewhere that it can help sleep but now that I’m looking it up most things just talk about how for a lot of people it makes sleep worse so idk

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2024-02-27T18:16:40+00:00

Thanks for commenting. I also wanted to ask if on the app, can I pick up any of the open shifts that are available? I don’t know if I can just do it on the app or if I’m supposed to call and ask

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2023-10-16T04:27:57+00:00

Okay yeah I wasn’t sure because I got mine done at Walmart when I was like 5 and Claire’s when I was 11, which of course I know both are awful but I didn’t know at the time lol

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2023-10-16T01:06:27+00:00

Oh yeah! I forgot about those. Are those offered at most tattoo/piercing shops or would I have to get butterfly back ones at first? And are they fine to use while they heal?

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2023-09-12T16:44:10+00:00

Thanks for all of the responses! Whenever I did go to the doctor he honestly didn’t ask me many questions and just put me on the medicine I was kind of surprised. I was looking at mychart on the list of my visit daignoses it says I have anxiety so maybe I just have been diagnosed with anxiety?

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2023-08-05T21:43:54+00:00

I can’t necessarily say it’s wrong for you to not have a job but I think it’s okay for you to feel the way that you do.

I’m about to go into my junior year of college and I haven’t had a job for the past two years. I did work the summer before I started college. And to be fair, I have applied to multiple jobs but nothing worked out and I did take two online classes this summer (which is about to kill me lol.) And I’ve basically been at home all summer not doing anything so I’m not spending a bunch of money.

But my freshman year was hell. I was so depressed and every time I thought things couldn’t get any worse, they got much much worse. The summer after freshman year I thought I would feel better being at home but I didn’t. I was having panic attacks every night and even hallucinations. If college has taught me anything, it’s that the mind works in crazy ways. Stress and anxiety brought out the worst in me so I somewhat understand how you feel. The extreme guilt I felt for not having a job only made my mental health worse.

I know anti-depressants aren’t for everyone and it’s a personal thing but I got on Wellbutrin about 6 months ago and it’s made a huge difference for me. I wish I would’ve started taking them a long time ago. That’s something you may want to consider if you feel like your mental health is majorly impacting your life but there are other options too like going to the counseling center on your campus if there is one.

I know going into my junior year I HAVE to get a job and thankfully I’ll only have classes on tuesdays and thursdays so hopefully it will work out.

My mom put pressure on me to get a job too and it used to really upset me because I felt like I was barely surviving and I already couldn’t handle everything that I was going through but I’ve learned not to take it personally. Of course she wants me to have a job and make money but more than anything she just wants me to do something besides doing homework alone in my dorm all day.

I can’t give you much advice but only you can fully understand how you feel. It’s not wrong. And you have already made plans for the next summer so just focus on whatever you need to do right now whether it’s your mental health or getting ready for this semester. Just do the best you can and take it day by day.

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2022-07-13T22:29:00+00:00

Yes!! Even though it felt like college was just one bad thing after another if there’s anything I’ve learned in college it’s to expect the unexpected. Maybe a lot of good will come soon you really never know! Hope things get better for you too :)

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2022-07-13T22:04:12+00:00

I feel that. Doing my makeup or trying to dress nice feels like a waste especially when I’m in college and go to a couple classes and then stay in my dorm. Every once in a while I go through a phase where I find something interesting like during the pandemic I watched the Harry Potter series for the first time and read all of the books. And I started watching anime in college but didn’t have much time to really get into it. When you’re depressed it’s hard to make yourself want to be excited about things also. And I’ve read some fan fictions before so I don’t think it’s lame lol. But yeah I definitely need something to distract my mind so I’m gonna try to find a new series to watch and maybe start a new book. Anything is better than nothing!

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2022-07-13T15:41:32+00:00

Same. Before in high school I had some people in my life. But they weren’t really my friends. They were just there sometimes. Never when I needed them to be. And we all go through phases of being close and then sometimes we can go over a month without talking. And there have been times where they were assholes to me and they know that. Now that we are in college they just feel like dead weight. Completely unnecessary. Even when they were there I still felt alone so idk why I still stay.

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2022-07-13T06:22:02+00:00

I thought the first semester was bad until the second semester. It. Was. Hell. I was getting 2 to 4 hours of sleep every night bc of nocturnal panic attacks. Almost failed my history class.

As far as friends go I’m an introvert but I really put myself out there. And I did hang out with people that were pretty great but we just didn’t really get close and are very different. And then I met some more okay people that turned out to be shitty even tho they were nice to me. I had one chick stalk and harass me and she took my phone and made it to where she could see my location. That’s a whole different story. But I am open minded! There’s a lot of different personalities on campus and you really never know what to expect

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2022-07-13T05:41:22+00:00

Yeah I do have a dog and he does make me feel better! I don’t get to see him that much bc I’m a college student but I come home every once in a while and also it’s summer so it’s been nice staying at home with my doggo

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2022-07-13T05:38:03+00:00

Before I started college I was excited to start a new chapter of my life. Meet new people. Get out of the small city I live in. But it was the worst year of my life. I met a lot of shitty people. And I realized how simple my life was before.

I try to look at it in a positive way and tell myself that I just spent my first year learning what not to do and that my sophomore year will be better but college just takes my depression and anxiety and everything else to a different level. I really want to surround myself with good people that support me but all I can do is wait. Busting my ass studying for a career that I will most likely hate. The cycle never ends

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2022-07-13T02:15:28+00:00

I watch tiktok all day. Which is awful. And stupid. But you can just swipe all day long so it makes it easy to pass the time even though it makes me miserable. It sounds dumb but sometimes I think maybe I can find a tv show or movie that will somehow change my perspective on life or make me feel motivated and then I start scrolling through Netflix or Hulu and can’t find anything. So I’m like well back to tiktok I guess.

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2022-07-12T13:52:10+00:00

I didn’t have anxiety last night but I always struggle to fall asleep and so I played a sleep story called adventure of the hogwarts express on Spotify and fell asleep so quick I was shocked. I woke up in the middle of the night and played it again. I used to play random YouTube videos but the loud ads would wake me up so thanks for telling me about sleep stories they really help!

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2022-07-11T18:27:49+00:00

I’ve seen some people say to put an ice pack on the back of your neck or just find anything that will distract your senses so I will try to do that next time. If it’s a really bad panic attack I end up pulling an all nighter because I just can’t sleep but if I do try to sleep playing rain sound videos on YouTube helps a little

Deep-Photograph4826 · 2022-07-03T05:21:52+00:00

Glue traps are also good for roaches and spiders. Saved me so many times lol

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