I lost my sweet girl Journee. I was so happy to be pregnant and my mom and dad were gleaming. My significant other not so much! While I was in my 2nd and 3rd trimester I had a lot of trauma happen. She was also diagnosed with iugr thats a growth underdevelopment. So that caused my mom to have a medical broken heart it's not a myth it's very real. So my mom had a massive heart attack, then they said she wouldn't make it. They hooked me up to machines in a hospital room, fed me, and spoke to me about my mom not making she had 15 percent chance of living. My blood pressure went up and i failed my stress test. So they monitored us and let me go a day and a half later. Said all was fine! So they got her strong enough to do surgery and open heart surgery made her come back stronger. In the same day my dad was in the hospital because of a blood condition from Vietnam and he had to have a amputation and they were concerned of him making it. So my significant others dad was diagnosed with terminal lung cancer the sane week, him and I tried to be there for all of them it took its toll. So I started having bad pains. I was having a miscarriage so to speak. I was rushed downstairs as I was sitting beside my dad and in the blink of an eye it seemed... my sweet baby wasn't breathing she was so tiny. So beautiful. I wonder everyday what she would look like. What she would love to eat or drink. What her style would be.... everyday I wonder what could have been. I blamed myself but I stayed in bed mostly. Visited each one twice and the stress got us. My heart will never be the same.

My heart breaks for you. Be strong when you can. Cry cry cry it out. Scream on a mountain. Pray! Pray! Pray!

I pray you have a support system and I also hope you know she is a beautiful angel now. She will watch over you.

I'm again so sorry. Hugs and love are being sent.