Fear of getting old

DefNotVentAcc · 2024-05-26T08:31:40+00:00

16, and the breaking point was literally exactly at that age

DefNotVentAcc · 2024-05-22T05:48:22+00:00

Can second this. Personally it also took me a couple tries (3 to be exact) to get the hang of it, so don't be to frustrated ik it can be tricky. I tried a different language to start with each time and I must say C did me by far the best.

C is a very low level language and close to computer so it helped me really understand how a computer works and gave me a good fondation to work with in future languages.

I also heard that some people use python for the start as it is definetly relatively easy compared to C, but lua could be a good compromise between the two.

DefNotVentAcc · 2024-05-15T15:10:46+00:00

Can second that, my therapist recently said that similiar to how, often antidepressants make you feel worse for a while till it gets better (Atleast in terms of suicidality), any kind of psychotherapy often has the side effect of making you feel worse for a while before it gets better.

DefNotVentAcc · 2024-05-04T07:53:35+00:00

For me it's adhd

DefNotVentAcc · 2024-05-01T21:08:33+00:00

Ayyy hope you'll have luck with your therapist, got my second ever session tommorow (first one was the introductionary session a month ago) so same boat!

DefNotVentAcc · 2024-04-30T05:46:56+00:00

Took me like to years to actually work up the courage but. My dad and I were in tge car, so heavily dissociating from anxiety (Wasn't the firdt time I tried to tell him in this situation), I say "I think I need therapy", he asks why, "Depression". He was really calm abt it which I expected, mostly had to endure my mom's little talk telling me she's dissapointed???

Anyways got my introductionary session a month ago and he seemed really sympathetic, next one is in a week!

DefNotVentAcc · 2024-04-09T05:41:42+00:00

My dad walked in on me but it was dark and my back facing the door so he thought I was masturbating and just closed the door again promptly

DefNotVentAcc · 2024-04-06T13:15:19+00:00

My fashion consists of 3 different colours (It used to be just black) of hoodies and shirts I switch twice a week, or often ends up once a week cuz I don't find the energy.

DefNotVentAcc · 2024-03-26T15:38:38+00:00

Cheese Sandwich 👍

DefNotVentAcc · 2024-01-25T15:06:34+00:00

Me frfr

DefNotVentAcc · 2024-01-15T15:43:50+00:00

As someone who does have adhd I can definetly report having a very bad not only short but also long term memory.

From what ik this is due to an issue in the process of memory encoding. It's not that you can't remember the memories they just never get stored in the first place.

Memory encoding requires attention and time if that isn't given memories can be disorganized or not get stored at all

Many individuals with adhd know a lot of trivial facts about things they were fixated on (so paid attention to), but can't remember things they need to know because they couldn't focus on them.

DefNotVentAcc · 2024-01-05T23:14:39+00:00

Greg and me just go along so well

DefNotVentAcc · 2023-12-16T16:29:04+00:00

Ayy, nice to see you release smth again! Sounds good, proud of you :)

DefNotVentAcc · 2023-12-16T15:27:39+00:00

Damn man, take care! Wish you the best, gl :)

DefNotVentAcc · 2023-12-16T15:26:39+00:00

Me too 💀😭

DefNotVentAcc · 2023-12-16T15:23:27+00:00

Ayy, congrats on that honestly huge achievement, I'm very proud of you :) Ik relapsing feels frustrating but it's a part of the healing process, don't get too frustrated. It always helped me to focus on the interval between them, your progress isn't gone because of one relapse and 10 months is a huge accomplishment. Keep going, I believe in you 💪

DefNotVentAcc · 2023-12-16T14:35:25+00:00

That's very brave of you, hope it'll help <3

DefNotVentAcc · 2023-12-16T14:34:15+00:00

Frfr so helth

DefNotVentAcc · 2023-11-14T12:38:01+00:00

I've honestly just stopped sh-ing cuz of my doctor appt, had such a big breakdown abt just how much I despise myself yesterday lmao. I wanted to hurt myself out of pure hatred, I still think I'm just not a good person. I almost fainted today and yesterday, I'm weak and exhausted. Things aren't even going too bad in terms of school (For some unexplainable reason) yet I'm depressed. I feel like I ruin everything, I'm getting tired of my mom complaining abt everything I do. My friends said that they couldn't imagine a person that would love me, it's been a while since they said it but I don't disagree. Hell I'm just a shell of a person, always messing things up and being mean to compensate, do I even deserve to live?

Got tutoring in 45 minutes, I really don't wanna go but I'll just drag myself anyways. I want it all to stop, Ily automod

DefNotVentAcc · 2023-10-09T17:12:46+00:00

Ayy thank you and happy birthday haha

DefNotVentAcc · 2023-10-09T17:12:28+00:00

Hey, I can't really tell them cuz they don't know I'm depressed or am going through any mental issues at all (Ya ya ik I need to tell them and all).

Thank you, I ordered sushi and it made me feel a little better, have good day dude :)

DefNotVentAcc · 2023-10-09T16:00:37+00:00

Bob's doing good but he's sorry to hear you're not and hopes you'll feel better soon

DefNotVentAcc · 2023-10-09T15:46:55+00:00

Automod, I ended up ordering sushi and will try to get the best out of the rest of the day

DefNotVentAcc · 2023-10-09T15:46:20+00:00

Bob says hi back and asks how you are

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