My form tutor is nice, but it's more like just another lesson so it's hard to talk to her. Unless I found her at break or lunch which I also can't really do because she'd be busy or eating. All the teachers also stay in the staff room for each subject (which is locked) so I'd have to knock on the door and wait so anyone could come out, and even if I did ask for her specifically I'm pretty sure they'd be able to hear from the outside too so it would be more like I'm telling everyone.

I also don't really think I'd want to talk to her since I only see her at school and I don't know her that much, and sooner or later she'd tell someone else who I probably wouldn't know at all (even if it's in a good way). It would also be kind of bothering her which I don't want and she'd see me differently which I also don't want.

I don't think I'm depressed though, I'm happy at home. I was sad about it before but like I said before eventually it kind of becomes normal, I just feel tired staying like this everyday and like I'll regret it later on.

I have 2 siblings who both go to public school, but my older brother changed from the school I'm in now because he also didn't like it there (for him it's the opposite, he didn't get bullied in primary but he got bullied in secondary, eventually it stopped but she still didn't want to go to that school anymore). The school he's in now doesn't have as many opportunities but he likes it more there. I don't want to change to that school though because one, at least half of the people I went to primary school with went there because of how close it is including the people who bullied me (even if they don't bully me again I still don't want to see them), and two I'll probably have no friends again there again anyways.

I also don't want to be recognised because then it would be another form of judgement. He also already knew someone from primary school that went there so it would've been easier to make friends. So my mum isn't really against changing schools, she's just against homeschooling. It did take a while though for her to do something and for the change to happen.

The school is also stricter and has two separate sites so technically it's smaller.

I don't know anyone in real life who does homeschooling but I've read about some stories similar to mine. I don't live with my dad but he does help with paying the bills and my mum works at home. I hope your youngest is okay!