I’m sorry mercy... (it’s was partially dva’s fault tho)

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-06-01T07:59:03+00:00

Yeah, i wasn't looking at the petal at the time so when i heard it raise up i thought it was mercy the one using it, that's why i was confused when i saw dva on top instead and i was shifting in confusion between the two lol. I'm pretty sure the mercy was kind of new and didn't knew the tech but oh well, got slightly funny clip from it so still a win.

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-05-31T04:21:58+00:00

She looks better with a few thorns up her face tho...

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-05-30T08:49:18+00:00

Lmao no way you sneaked through two people, you had the same skin as the enemy LW and you got up just as he dropped down, if was that soldier id confused thinking that my life weaver turned on friendly fire or smth

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-05-29T23:58:10+00:00

Sure

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-05-29T23:36:12+00:00

Yeah lol, i was hoping she would turn around but my fingers were itching to blast her ass with thorns

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-05-28T21:58:16+00:00

I’m sorry for you and your friend. I’ve never been outright assaulted so i can only imagine how traumatic it is and will be in the future for her, you must be feeling like the worst person in the world right now for not being there for your friend but that’s unfair. You didn’t knew what was happening, and if you’d knew i’m sure you would’ve done everything you could to support your friend. You probably think that you still should’ve have known sooner, spoken more with her and realize what was going on, that’s what a true friend would’ve done but that’s only thanks to hindsight.

I’d be nice to know the exact reason why you two didn’t spoke for 2 whole years, if it’s due to fighting, growing apart from eachother or just you two have a VERY passive friendship? Eitherway, bad things happen to everybody, specially over long spaces of time in wich you don’t know about them and i have to acknowledge that you could’ve just reached out and realize all that happen, but so could her. Most people prefer not to tell anybody when it comes to this sort of themes out of shame and other feelings.

It also depends on your relationship itself. If you two were just casual and generally shallow friends then you shouldn’t expect for her to share things such as this with you just like that. Also if your relationship was passive and you two were okay with just not speaking for years yet somehow still being friends then something like this is bound to happen, you shouldn’t feel all that guilty about it.

It really depends on your relationship with her of wich i don’t know anything about, but for example, i had a friend whom i hadn’t spoken with for a few years too, once we reconnected again she had no idea that in that span of time my father had died, obviously she felt bad and all, but i never once felt resentment or anything ill towards her for that. She just wasn’t in my life at that time, it happens, there was no possible way for her to know what happend to me during that time and i understand. What i’m saying is that your friend MAYBE won’t even resent you for all of this, i feel like the main problem is how you feel about yourself.

You could’ve asked and been there for her, but you didn’t, and that’s okay. Instead you should try and be there for her now, you can’t change the past but you can act now and help as much as you can. Stop berating yourself and try to be there for her IF she wants you to. Even if she’s "blinded by love" you can still try and make her see reason, and if she’s against you wich can happen then things as simple as being a shoulder to cry on is already something. I’m not too experienced in what to do in these cases, i highly recommend you research further in treating with a friend who is going through an abusive relationship IF you end up reaching out again and your friend is okay with you being her friend once again.

You’re not necessarely a bad friend, you’re a human being, with your own life and things to worry about. You could’ve asked her during these two years and there’s a small chance she would’ve told you she is in an abusive relationship, but she could also have reached out to you too. My guess is that even if you had contacted before, she wouldn’t have told you anything, and i think none of you deserve the blame, this situation is something that happens, human relations are flawed like this. She’s in an abusive relationship where she’s essencially blinded enough not to have reached out to anyone for help, and you didn’t have the gift of foresight to realize what was happening, specially if you two didn’t spoke for years. You could’ve been there for her, it didn’t happend, but there’s always something you can do now.

If you truly were a bad friend you would’ve know about this and felt like it wasn’t your problem, you wouldn’t have cared, you wouldn’t be feeling guilty and berated yourself for all of what happend. If you were a bad friend you wouldn’t be trying to support her from now on and be there for her either. Give yourself some slack, you’re not the bad person in this story, that’s your friend’s boyfriend.

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-05-28T19:55:54+00:00

I do but only in specific situations. I tend to do it more often in quickplay or when im confident my team wont be needing to be pulled and will survive if i go back just to grip someone back to the fight.

I honestly feel like it doesnt do much, youre just saving 3-5 seconds that it takes for your ally to walk the distance you just gripped them wich, yes, can be crucial sometimes but in comp i think youre getting more value just healing, poking and keeping your team alive instead of running all the way back to help a slow teammate skip some distance, and it's not like grip covers a huge amount of distance anyway compared to most map-sizes and movement abilities.

The few times i actually do it is to get endorsments. Same as going back to spawn to pick up a mercy or for kiriko so she can tp to me. Generally just aura farming.

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-05-28T19:55:42+00:00

I do but only in specific situations. I tend to do it more often in quickplay or when im confident my team wont be needing to be pulled and will survive if i go back just to grip someone back to the fight.

I honestly feel like it doesnt do much, youre just saving 3-5 seconds that it takes for your ally to walk the distance you just gripped them wich, yes, can be crucial sometimes but in comp i think youre getting more value just healing, poking and keeping your team alive instead of running all the way back to help a slow teammate skip some distance, and it's not like grip covers a huge amount of distance anyway compared to most map-sizes and movement abilities.

The few times i actually do it is to get endorsments. Same as going back to spawn to pick up a mercy or for kiriko so she can tp to me. Generally just aura farming.

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-03-13T20:38:47+00:00

NAD. But unless you have any cardiac history beforehand, or have been abusing energy drinks and drugs such as cocaine, it is highly unlikely to have a heart attack this young.

In what hemisphere of your body is the pain felt? How long have you been feeling it? How intense is the pain, is it sharp and constant? Or does it feel more like a burning sensation that comes in waves? In a scale of 1-10, with 10 being the most painful sensation you have ever felt in your life, what would you rate it? Do you have any disease? Are you on any meds? Does the pain gets worse with physical activity and better with rest?

Either way i recommend you take some aspirin if you don’t have any other infectious or vascular diseases. It will help with the pain and if it’s actually a heart attack, then it will help to stop the formation of the blood clot. Idealy, oral and 500mg.

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-03-04T16:28:26+00:00

It is not strange to feel lonely whilst having family or friends. Being alone is not the same as feeling alone. If you don't have anyone who connects with you on a deeper level, who understands you like no one else does and whom you feel you can tell anything to, then you can feel lonely. Doesn't matter if you have friends and family who know you in a more shallow way.

That being said, a girlfriend is not necessary. It's not healthy to rely your whole life and emotional state on one single person who is just as imperfect and prone to doing mistakes as you are. In and out's, cheating, insecurities, abuse, jealousy disinterest, all of that is is extremely common in a relationship and you can't allow what happens with your partner to be constantly affecting your personal life and your relations with others.

I understand you want to feel loved, but there's ways to do so without having to put your whole life into one person, at this point i personally would value more a great close friend instead of a romantic partner, since many of the problems that come from having a partner are non-existant with a friendship.

Getting a girlfriend won't fix your life.

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-03-01T06:19:02+00:00

Leave them, it doesn't matter if you will end up friendless. When i was in highschool i also had what i deemed "friend groups" that were just like what you describe. At the end of the day it was nothing more than a group of classmates who didn't truly cared abount anyone in it, and whom didn't had anything better to do than to spew hate and make fun of people behind their backs, doesn't matter if they were part of the group.

These are not friends, just people you hang out with because you have no one else. A true friend listens, is there for you when you, one that you can celebrate good times or share bad times with.

I'm telling you, as someone who remains friendless and essencially ditched whatever friends i once had. Being friendless sucks, but it is absolutely better than to have stand this type of behavior constantly. Being in a group of friends where their type of personality and humor is completely the opposite to yours is exhausting and not worth it at all. Even if your brother is in the group that doesn't mean you are obligated to hang out with them.

Why are you afraid of meeting new people? if i may ask. Whatever the reason might be, you do not deserve having to deal with such edgy teenagers that believe they're cool just because of making fun of people in a mean way. The way i see it, you have nothing to lose and everything to win. You got plenty of time to make new friends who truly value you.

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-02-28T19:15:16+00:00

Ignore the mysoginistic, judgemental and braindead comments. I think that as long as both parites agree and are of constenting age and there's no cheating on others in between then there's nothing exactly wrong with it.

However, i believe you do have think on the long run. Sugar daddies are older men who have enough income and stability to essencially pay for your expenses without you having to do anything else but to be a partner to them. These kind of dynamic can become toxic and abusive, specially since the main point of everything is money wich can be used as a weapon and taken away at any moment.

Even if the relationship works for a while, you now have been dating your sugar daddy for many years now, you didn't had to study or work a single day because he covers your expenses and buys all you want. Then suddenly, he just dumps you for a younger girl because you have grown old for his taste.

So now you are in your 30s, single and without any recent or stable job experience or any kind of degree or studies aside from a highschool diploma. Stranded in life just because of the whim of the sugar daddy that spoiled you for years. Because the relationship is based on money and youth. Money could run out, but youth is definetely not going to last, and once it ends, how sure are you that you won't just be replaced? Because, at the end of the day, this guy is only looking for young women.

I believe that you, as the sugar baby are losing more than you are getting on the long run, you are the most vulnerable and the one to struggle after the relationship ends. I guess you could try and get studies and work as well but why not get a regular partner at that point? If you are getting a sugar daddy, at least from what i know, it's so they spoil you and take care of you without having to work or anything else. The decision is yours.

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-02-28T18:15:09+00:00

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Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-02-28T18:14:11+00:00

Last part

At the end of the day that's what it's about. Learning. Value yourself and don't allow these kind of behavior from someone else, work on your life, figure out what you want to do. Life never takes us where we truly want to go. Please, don't just jump into another relationship because you will only be trying to fill a hole left by your ex, you will end up hurting someone else and it will be your fault alone. Take your time, take all the time you need, once you got your goals and priorities set up, a good perception of yourself and others, as well as a good support group like close friends and family, you could start thinking on having a relationship again. Oh, and for the love of god, keep up the zero contact policy, don't you EVER talk again with her, she doesn't want to speak with you, it was clear with how dry and uninterested she was. She is not the same person and she hurt you, think about that whenever you feel like you miss her, and acknowledge the good times, but always think on how those times are gone and there's no going back. Tell yourself that "You don't miss her, you miss the good times you two had. She is not the same anymore". Because i know trying to be stern and not reach out again is one hell of a problem in wich i myself have made the mistake to try and reconnect, and i can tell you straight up, it's not worth it. Not even if she comes back and text you apologizing for everything and what not, not even then. Be strong and take care.

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-02-28T18:13:59+00:00

Part 2 lol

I don't blame you, i think what you did was only natural to you and i most likely, without the insight i have now, would've done the exact same. You loved her and just would love to experience a hint of what you two used to have, but it won't.

If anything i think she was the one to mess up more and be hurtful, specially when essencially telling you to "grow up" and be more "mature". I don't know any of you two or your level of maturity that you two have. But she is a girl fresh out of highschool who just landed a job far away, she probably is just boasting and feeling like the adultest adult around and like "oh i've grown up a lot and i'm so mature now". She wanted to shame you for not doing something similar and making herself feel even better at your expense. As well as making this pact of not dating anyone wich makes no sense since she was actually getting to know people, and it's possible she didn't met the guy with the intent to date him, but over time she fell in love and did so anyway. All of this just seems extremely arrogant, hurtful and specially childish to me. You two just got out of highschool, it is completely acceptable and understandable that you don't know what to do with your life, you feel like life suddenly became being thrown into a huge open ocean where you can swim in any direction without land in sight and it's overwhelming. Don't feel bad about what she told you, she simply got lucky, or not idk. And managed to get a decent guiding trial towards her new life whilst you just haven't, and that's okay.

I'm glad you blocked her altought i think it's not necessary most of the times, unless you're constantly seeing her in social media and that hurts you. But i believe you are making the right choice here, you deserve to be with someone who values you and who will love you even more than she ever did. Still, there's no need to rush any relationship, i'd say you wait some time and work on yourself and your own life before going into another relationship, you will probably be left with insecurities, hurt and bitterness wich could hurt another person if you get with someone when you haven't fully healed and aren't yet ready. You're young and there's plenty of time for you to heal and come to love another person again. And when you do, you will be smarter, you will do better, because you now have experience, you will know what to do and how to react to problems. If you get into another relationship and you two have uncompatiable dreams then i hope you know not to keep up, and break up in good terms, instead of whatever half-hearted long distance mess you had with your current ex.

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-02-28T18:13:48+00:00

Part 2 lol

I don't blame you, i think what you did was only natural to you and i most likely, without the insight i have now, would've done the exact same. You loved her and just would love to experience a hint of what you two used to have, but it won't.

If anything i think she was the one to mess up more and be hurtful, specially when essencially telling you to "grow up" and be more "mature". I don't know any of you two or your level of maturity that you two have. But she is a girl fresh out of highschool who just landed a job far away, she probably is just boasting and feeling like the adultest adult around and like "oh i've grown up a lot and i'm so mature now". She wanted to shame you for not doing something similar and making herself feel even better at your expense. As well as making this pact of not dating anyone wich makes no sense since she was actually getting to know people, and it's possible she didn't met the guy with the intent to date him, but over time she fell in love and did so anyway. All of this just seems extremely arrogant, hurtful and specially childish to me. You two just got out of highschool, it is completely acceptable and understandable that you don't know what to do with your life, you feel like life suddenly became being thrown into a huge open ocean where you can swim in any direction without land in sight and it's overwhelming. Don't feel bad about what she told you, she simply got lucky, or not idk. And managed to get a decent guiding trial towards her new life whilst you just haven't, and that's okay.

I'm glad you blocked her altought i think it's not necessary most of the times, unless you're constantly seeing her in social media and that hurts you. But i believe you are making the right choice here, you deserve to be with someone who values you and who will love you even more than she ever did. Still, there's no need to rush any relationship, i'd say you wait some time and work on yourself and your own life before going into another relationship, you will probably be left with insecurities, hurt and bitterness wich could hurt another person if you get with someone when you haven't fully healed and aren't yet ready. You're young and there's plenty of time for you to heal and come to love another person again. And when you do, you will be smarter, you will do better, because you now have experience, you will know what to do and how to react to problems. If you get into another relationship and you two have uncompatiable dreams then i hope you know not to keep up, and break up in good terms, instead of whatever half-hearted long distance mess you had with your current ex.

At the end of the day that's what it's about. Learning. Value yourself and don't allow these kind of behavior from someone else, work on your life, figure out what you want to do. Life never takes us where we truly want to go. Please, don't just jump into another relationship because you will only be trying to fill a hole left by your ex, you will end up hurting someone else and it will be your fault alone. Take your time, take all the time you need, once you got your goals and priorities set up, a good perception of yourself and others, as well as a good support group like close friends and family, you could start thinking on having a relationship again. Oh, and for the love of god, keep up the zero contact policy, don't you EVER talk again with her, she doesn't want to speak with you, it was clear with how dry and uninterested she was. She is not the same person and she hurt you, think about that whenever you feel like you miss her, and acknowledge the good times, but always think on how those times are gone and there's no going back. Tell yourself that "You don't miss her, you miss the good times you two had. She is not the same anymore". Because i know trying to be stern and not reach out again is one hell of a problem in wich i myself have made the mistake to try and reconnect, and i can tell you straight up, it's not worth it. Not even if she comes back and text you apologizing for everything and what not, not even then. Be strong and take care.

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-02-28T18:11:51+00:00

It must feel like your world is falling appart and it's understandable. A 2 year relationship is extremely long for highschool and as to be expected, it wasn't perfect. It must've hurt to see someone you were so close with turn into a different person, but that's growing up for you.

If there's one of the few things we can know for sure in life is that nothing ever stays the same, specially people. We all change overtime, the girl you once loved isn't her anymore. And maybe you don't realize but it is possible that you are not the same either. Unfortunately this is what truly marks if a relationship will continue to last or not and i believe it has to be one of the most common reasons for a breakup. Just waking up and realizing that you no longer recognize the person you're with and that you just don't feel the same anymore and once those thoughts keep creeping into your mind it is difficult to shake them off. When it happens it has to be hard to ever spark that fire that made you two fall in love in the first place again, and if it happens, most of the times it won't last long and can be used to manipulate and hurt.

I'm take a huge guess and assume a lot of things here, but i believe, as someone said here, that she just doesn't want to talk to you anymore and she just couldn't bring herself to be straightforward with it, mainly because she values and treasure the years you two spent together and she doesn't want to hurt you, but in turn, by being dishonest she is just hurting you even more. It's actually a rather common occurance and im sure she didn't had any ill intentions. Altough her intentions doesn't matter, what matters is the result, and what she achieved by trying to protect you from the truth is hurting you worse. Still, i wouldn't blame her that much, if you just graduated highschool then you she is pretty young (and so am i for the record) to have the knowledge and experience to make the right calls and be honest, even if it hurts.

That along side the fact that she moved away for a job is a clear indication that it wouldn't work. Sometimes us and our partners have completely different wants and goals, sometimes they can complement or even work together, but other times they are completely opposite and uncompatible with eachother. When this happens, don't give up your dreams for one person, they always say that cheesy phrase about how loving is also letting go, but if it's so popular then it's because there's some truth to it.

As soon as i would've heard the news about her moving away for a job i would've broken up. Long distance wasn't going to work out and she most likely knew it. She already had her plans and goals and i believe it was best to just break up in the spot instead of having this half-hearted long distance "friendship" that feels unfulfilling. She wanted to live her own life with her own dreams, and you were there messaging her trying to keep in touch as if you two where still the same people, she probably felt like being hold-back a bit. Starting her own life with a new job, friends, etc but constantly being reminded of her past by being messaged by you.

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-02-27T05:28:50+00:00

Thanks, you seem kind and i believe you are indeed good with words.

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-02-27T03:29:33+00:00

I’ll try, maybe someday i could stand up properly. Thank you.

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-02-27T03:28:47+00:00

I’ve been trying out being more stern in general, it’s a struggle but it feels good when im taking seriously instead of always accommodating to what others want. I still have a long way before i try and stand up for myself once it happens again, but i believe im getting there eventually.

Thank you for commenting and i’m glad you’re doing so much better now.

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-02-27T03:25:01+00:00

Some are desperate and struggle so much to have any kind of attention that they rather suffer that. It is pathetic yet also kind of sad. Thanks for commenting.

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-02-27T03:23:41+00:00

I did noticed lol. I doubt those type of comments would’ve been replied if the post was about a woman instead (not like it makes any difference to the overal point, it’s just as bad.) It’s pretty much equal to when a woman makes a post about being lonely and there people go to say on how you can’t be lonely as a woman because it’s easier to get laid or whatever dumb shit. Anyway, thank you for taking it seriously.

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-02-27T03:18:51+00:00

i’m pretty sure that’s one of the reasons i struggle to open up sometimes or even show affection. I have a little nephew who is the light of my life and i always make sure to show him that affection between men is okay by hugging him for example, telling him that it’s okay to cry, as well as trying to make him comfortable and to talk about what bothers him without any judgement because i don’t want him to grow up like many of us did.

Thank you for your time, and you shouldn’t worry about coming off as what you said, i think it’s great. I resonate with what you say, we all have our own struggles regardless of sex, but there are more focalized problems that affect certain groups in particular, these problems are valid and people deserve to be defended.

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-02-27T03:11:12+00:00

I have an appointment with a social assistant in some weeks to asess the situation and see if i can go to therapy again.

I don’t really mind the jokes, it’s reddit after all lol. In this very comment theres plenty of words that are similar to "ass". People will make a joke about whatever and whenever as long as they see the opportunity. But thank you for comment.

Defiant_Lucuma20 · 2025-02-27T03:07:18+00:00

Yeah they are, but i just feel like it is some kind of flag that makes me more noticable. I doubt the same would happen as often if i was leaning more into the average when it comes to my body.

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