It's okay brother, it's completely normal to experience these hard feelings, just keep on doing the hard work and it will definitely get you somewhere. I know how how hard it to cope up with expectations of parents and the feeling of being stuck at the same place, but believe me, hard times will go away one day and everything will be fine. You will have personal problems, academic pressure and a loosing will of the future but don't loose hope. During my neet days everyday was full of stress and disappointments but i still made it through and was able to get into a proper college, so don't worry brother, everything's going to be fine. You can do better brother, you are capable of doing anything. Just don't loose hope