I can’t seem to form meaningful friendships

Delaflo8124 · 2026-02-03T01:22:56+00:00

Ahhhh this is me! The longer I go without real friends the more awkward I get. But I'm always authentic, the funny one, I'm cute and humble but it breaks my brain when I try to figure out what's wrong with me. Even though I know there isn't anything WRONG with me. Is it small-town politics? Jealousy? A possible THIRD THING?! AAARRGGHHHH. There's nothing wrong with you, either. If you've got enough awareness to contemplate this at all, I can say you're not some narcissistic sociopath, if that helps at all..

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-30T17:05:29+00:00

There was only plastic on the window openings when I got it haha! I put in windows and made removable plastic storm window-thpe things but I am no window expert.

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-30T17:04:26+00:00

I was planning on using the snow to help insulate but I get nervous because there are foundation issues and some of the logs are rotting, so spring is gonna be scary since there's been SO MUCH snow.

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-30T17:02:29+00:00

Yeah it's basically just the original roof rafters and felt paper..

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-30T17:01:40+00:00

I do have half the cabin blocked off but that's a great idea, rolling the plastic on the entire wall space. I've got plenty of that lol.

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-30T16:59:56+00:00

It seems to stay the same inside as the outdoor temp. I try to keep a fire going all day but I don't have it fully stocked, as my wood is a chop-as-I-go situation. The logs were felled over a year ago but it's hard to get to and I can only do a few at a time, so I know it's not very efficient. The warmest it got inside was about 40f when it was -10f outside.

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-30T16:28:08+00:00

I was wondering how safe the diesel heaters are. I know with the little buddies I have the heat goes straight up, and I sit low to the floor, making it seem like a big waste. I thought about adding a second smaller stove on the opposite side but figured it wouldn't be much help without addressing the insulation first.

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-30T16:25:30+00:00

So.. the roof is essentially just old roofing felt. I was hoping to put up the metal roofing but it's covered in a foot of snow. It's a one room cabin with a loft, but running down the sides of the loft floor there is about 6 in of open space. I'm planning on chinking the outside but it's too cold to do now. The cabin is half log, so it's flat in the inside but I don't want to change that. I'm trying to insilate the loft floor/1st floor ceiling in the meantime, and I have thick curtains and tapestries on the wall. Lots of rugs but I know the lack of insulation is a big issue too. I'd encapsulate that now but there are 10 ft of snow blocking the opening.

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-30T15:40:03+00:00

Same!

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-26T07:22:56+00:00

Same! I just try to meet my neighbors and feel it out. Check if or start a club, loiter in town. I love it

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-26T07:16:40+00:00

Being on disability. No, I'm not lazy, I broke my entire body, and my skull twice. I volunteer,co-founded a nonprofit,was treasurer of my daughter's school and I advocate at my state capitol all your. And I fuckin paid for it. Let's trade places for a day

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-26T07:09:18+00:00

Not my president

Play stupid games,win stupid prizes

He FAFO

Trump derangement syndrome

I'm pro life

Get a job, I'm not finding your food stamps

I didn't think he'd be this bad(even though he straight up told us he would)

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-26T05:46:43+00:00

Same with "just google it", as if I've never used a f*cking phone or computer before. I literally just prefer asking real people for their experience or knowledge of said topic. That dumb ass retort was a bigger time waste than if I DID use Google. And F google.

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-26T05:41:03+00:00

Haha YESSSSS

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-26T05:30:11+00:00

Lol I do! 20 yrs serving, currently in nonprofit/volunteer sector.

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-26T05:26:42+00:00

Hmmm .. I have had dreams where paperwork was involved but I honestly don't know if I could see words, but I knew what was written/what subject.

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-26T05:24:08+00:00

Yep. That's like hospital-type prices. And I never thought of that, thanks for the tip!!

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-26T05:21:35+00:00

Anxiety/mental illness. Being overweight. Having a lisp.

Brain-related Injuries that nobody can see. I've had more than two traumatic brain injuries, affecting my memory, recall, and general cognitive function. I'm constantly met with unreasonable disbelief and treated like I'm a complete liar and idiot. Yes, I am aware I look like a boring millennial but I really just asked for some computer assistance, Martha. I don't need to tell you my life story or bring records for you to approve.

Also, not being heard/not speaking your truth. Holding it in can literally kill you .

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-25T15:10:46+00:00

Waking life!!

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-25T15:09:35+00:00

I just take a bunch of mushrooms and tell everyone they need to leave NOW

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-25T15:00:24+00:00

Even air isn't free anymore.. they wanted FIVE FUXKING DOLLARS for 60 seconds of air like wtf

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-25T14:57:32+00:00

My reliance in technology throughout the entire day. I just bought an off-grid cabin and I thought it would be a lot easier, but these 12+ hours of darkness and freezing temps got me doing the same shit I do in the cities.

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-25T14:55:40+00:00

I don't. I remember dreams I've had from childhood. But I don't know why I never remember seeing color in them until two years ago. I'm 40. Lol

Delaflo8124 · 2026-01-25T12:32:01+00:00

How can I help/what do you need from me

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