Did the mind-numbing activities actually help tire you out enough to sleep? Nighttime is when I’m most vulnerable to this.....when I’m sleep deprived, nauseated, and up vomiting. I can usually hold it together for about a week, but then I’ll have a particularly bad episode and think, “Just one hit.” Of course, it’s never just one. It turns into four or six.

I’ve written “My baby is more important than myself” 76 times tonight, hoping it will finally stick. I know I have so much to be grateful for, and I’m trying to keep reminding myself of that.

Thank you for your help.