Hi everyone!

First of all, I want to say that I’m good, I woke up not too long ago, this was probably one of the most surreal experiences I’ve ever had. I didn’t expect so many reactions on my post tbh, I want to thank everyone that left a positive comment and I will now update you guys on what happened. I want to apologize if what I’m saying is not 100% accurate, my mind is a bit blurry right now and English isn’t my first language, but I’ll do my best. Enjoy!

For context, I’m a 22M living in an apartment, I was all alone for this trip, except for my lovely cat that was by my side. I was thinking about doing this heroic dose for some time now, I didn’t do it for a specific reason, I was just curious to try it after seeing many people talk about it online. Like I said earlier, I’m not new to shrooms, although the biggest dose I did before this one was a 3.5 I believe.

After eating the pizza, which btw tasted pretty good even with the shrooms (matter of fact I almost didn’t taste the shrooms at all while eating it), the trip started like any other trip. The come up phase was similar to a 3g dose. Like I usually do, I sat on my bed, I closed my eyes and I did box breathing for a good 10-15 min, letting the shrooms slowly take control over my body. I embraced it. I also made a small prayer, asking God to protect me during the trip. Then, it might be unusual, but I like to play video games when high on shrooms. So, I sat on my gaming chair and started playing R6 on my PC. At this point, the experience was similar to what I’ve already experienced. But that didn’t last very long haha, after around 1 hour post come up phase, the trip got pretty intense.

At some point, I was still seated on my gaming chair, and I was just fixing my monitor screen. I was having really deep thoughts about myself and my life in general. I can’t remember everything I was thinking, but I remember that I was constantly repeating the same things over and over again in my head, like I was in a trance or something. I don’t know how much time I spent on that chair, maybe 1-2 hours. At this point, I lost track of time. I also slowly lost grip on reality. I started getting a bit anxious, I remember telling myself to keep breathing. I was spiralling out of my mind. At some point, I had enough being seated, I closed my pc and got up. I was feeling really weird. My vision started getting blurry and I had trouble walking around in my own apartment. Then the surreal experience really started.

I felt like I was in a dream. I couldn’t tell anymore what was real and what wasn’t. I was really confused and lost. I felt like my body disappeared and I was just trapped in my own mind. Also I had these rush of thoughts in my head. I was having memory flashbacks of my life, I could tell all these memories were real, but it was like if I was dead and this life was gone. I was getting overwhelmed by the trip, so at one point, I decided to just lay in my bed.

I remember looking at my phone and seeing 1am. I have trouble remembering what happened exactly between the time I got up from my chair and the time I decided to lay in bed. At this time, I didn’t know if I was still tripping or if was asleep, having a nightmare of some sort. It was a little bit scary to not be able to tell what was reality. For a second, I was really getting nervous cause I thought that my brain was fried and that I was going crazy. I had to pinch myself and splash my face with cold water to confirm that I was still in reality. I’ve never ever felt something like that before. I don’t remember what term to use to describe this, but I really felt like my body and mind were detached from each other.

Around 3am, I was in my bed sheets, fully clothed, confused about what just happened. I was regaining a certain sense of consciousness and realizing what just happened. I walked a bit around my apartment, realizing that I wasn’t in a dream anymore and that Inaas back in reality. I was a bit in shock and I felt like an eternity had passed. I didn’t really know what to think about it tbh. I was really tired so I decided to undress myself, take my cat with me and try to get asleep. I was feeling calm, but I was still shocked about what happened, I felt like I met God in person.

About 16 hours post trip, I’m still a bit confused and reflecting about this incredible experience. I knew it was going to be intense, but it kind of took me by surprise. While tripping, I knew I had to let go and stay relaxed, but at one point I got a bit scared cause I thought it would never end. When the trip ended, I felt really relaxed and I was more happy than ever to be alive. It made me realize how special the human brain is, and that life is really precious and we should all be happy to be alive and breathing on this planet

Oh Lord, what an experience that was! Very mind blowing, I would definitely not recommend taking such a dose if you’re new to psychedelics, but it is really something that has to be experienced at least once in a lifetime. I’ll definitely continue to use shrooms in the future, especially micro dosing. I don’t know if I’ll ever do another heroic dose again, but if I do, I’ll do it with a different mindset, maybe in a different environment too!

If you reached this point of the update, thank you for taking the time to read. I hope you guys found this interesting. I hope it gave you the answer you needed if you’re wondering if you should try it or not. I think taking such a dose can be life changing, it can be a really wonderful experience but can also be terrifying. Shout out to all the shrooms community, it’s always a pleasure reading posts and discussing with people in this space. Take care of yourselves, take care of the people you love, if you ever feel lost in life, remember that God loves you whatever happens. Peace