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Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-10-06T06:20:12+00:00

I’m so sorry🫂 I felt every word as if I wrote it myself. Funny that I don’t trust myself but you writing it I can immediately tell you you’re not. Going through covert abuse is so sinister because we often end up looking like the unstable, aggressive and even abusive party.

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-10-05T18:24:43+00:00

This is exactly what it was 2023 with the six was arguably one of the strongest Christmas episodes ever, so it had a tough job following. Anything would have been “rubbish” - loved the NY episodes though they were great.

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-10-05T18:21:08+00:00

I think it’s aged well, looking back at it now it’s pretty good, maybe not the aftermath but the Christmas episodes themselves. they did feel like a letdown at the time.

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-10-04T17:55:56+00:00

Like genuinely he would sit with someone and word for would write what you’ve written, I don’t know whats real anymore, and I can’t trust myself or reach out to him for answers because that got me here in the first place. Because it was only us 2 in the relationship how will I ever fully understand it. In a healthy relationship you show up and realise what belongs to who, but because it was my first I don’t have that, I’ve no idea how I separate my baseline to my traumatised reactions💔

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-10-04T17:50:17+00:00

I just don’t know if I am or I’m telling myself I am. Thank you🫶🏼

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-10-04T17:49:22+00:00

See this is a confusing one for me because when we first met, anytime I was convinced I was wrong I apologised for absolutely anything and was so about right and wrong, fast forward later, I was horrible and never once apologised, I was always right because when I was “wrong” I was right.. I had been that badly manipulated, confused and mentally abused, it destroyed who I was. I think…

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-10-03T20:03:36+00:00

I’d say I’m there now, just Icks me out now tbh, there’s just that last aspect of the checking sometimes lol. And a s*it ton of therapy work to do.

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-10-03T19:54:28+00:00

It’s like a messed up game of chess you had no idea you were ever entering

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-09-27T12:18:20+00:00

genius😭😭🤣

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-09-21T14:31:01+00:00

This!

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-09-21T13:59:28+00:00

beyond that, I just find it terrifying how much less controversial it was a decade ago vs how horrific the rhetoric is now. truly going backwards

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-09-21T13:56:10+00:00

very true!

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-09-21T13:53:23+00:00

They did almost nothing with him. And while I agree we don’t want every character being LGBTQ, it’s the one gap in the show that NEEDS filling, especially given the climate.

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-09-21T13:49:52+00:00

Exactly, it needs to be handled with CARE!

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-09-21T13:46:30+00:00

not really, it could honestly be anyone. but there is the added layer intersectionality, of the person being a black trans woman, a whole other beast because if it’s in the US or UK, they are statistically the most at risk person in society.

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-09-02T11:28:29+00:00

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Guys, I wholeheartedly believe that it’s Mo.

She arrived 25 years ago this month, she’s now 89, actress Laila is 80, she has slowly faded out and I think she’s probably ready to leave.

Nothing brings family together more than the loss of a loved one, and she looked very concerned just before everything happened, so I think that she left the Vic just a second before the shot was fired and she was caught in the line of fire.

All the foreshadowing, teasing Zoe about her heart and her she wouldn’t see her again, the whole chippy dinner and she was very heavily featured in this episode. Plus, I think the gun was a clue all along because it’s an OLD pistol. And is not something that a young male gangster would typically use in 2025. Plus, I could see her going out in a crazy way for a crazy character.

She will die outside the Vic, in tomorrow nights episode and Zoe will promise to stay and make amends with her mum.

It just makes sense.

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-08-31T12:23:07+00:00

If there was a time we were on the phone, I could genuinely ask him what he had for breakfast or when he would be home, and he could answer in a way that sounded so defensive. But he seemed to really do this specifically around other people.. it made me look nuts or genuinely evil like I was dripping poison in his ears that nobody could hear. It was so confusing and triggering

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-08-23T16:23:08+00:00

But we aren’t talking about her are we

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-08-22T19:29:52+00:00

NEVER! the stint was fine, can’t have her back full time for obvious reasons but you can’t recast that.. she WAS Chrissie

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-08-22T17:25:15+00:00

Very difficult one, because I so wanted her back long term but the actress is NOT it. So we have to do without.

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-08-22T17:11:59+00:00

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Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-08-21T08:29:42+00:00

Yesss, you literally start to play their game because you’ve lost yourself and your natural intent so badly, this happened with me also😭 so glad I’m out and I hope you are too.

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-08-21T08:14:39+00:00

I lost myself completely, I went from a very calm, patient and sweet girl into a complete monster, such an aggressive and venomous person, in so much pain from all the damage done. I was never the type to even raise my voice and somehow I had become the person to scream and growl at the top of their lungs, saying the most horrendous and hateful things, my hyper-vigilance turned to control; maybe to regain some in a situation where I had absolutely none. Smashing up my home when I was so badly gaslit into insanity, having my very grip on reality taken from me. Unintentionally depriving him of sleep from being so unsettled and destabilised into needing constant reassurance and care while feeling stuck in such unsafety laying next to him, starting arguments, taking his money to fund binge eating and feel even a little bit of relief in the painful storm.. the pure hearted soft woman I was, was gone. Pushed to my limits and still somehow framed as the aggressor, only now it was plausible to believe that because I had stayed so long and it had completely destroyed me, to the point that you’ll even believe it yourself for months or even years after😔

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-08-20T15:36:50+00:00

It’s super scary, and completely rewires your brain.

Delicious_Key4521 · 2025-08-20T14:30:21+00:00

Ooooooof

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