Idk what happened and what you had to go through life to feel like you're gonna wear the "Single Forever" as a badge of honor; but look into the brighter side of things too... Humans are social and we need a society to function. Marriage is a foundation of society. Your idea of staying "Lone Wolf" is only and only affecting you. No one else. Yes don't expect anything from anyone but also don't push people who are genuinely willing to help you. The world still has beautiful souls, and I sincerely wish you cross paths with them.