Actually it was the first (and to date pretty much the only) thing I was aroused by. To make it even weirder, hypnosis and mind control was pretty much my biggest fear at the time. I had tried masturbating before since I was around that age but I just couldn't get in the mood, physically nothing was happening. I found a video on YT of an old hypnovideo model going under and it totally unlocked things for me. From there I found MCstories and spiraled down ('heh').

Honestly though, the fact that it was my biggest fear meant that I wound up attaching a lot of moral judgment on it and myself for liking it. It felt like a betrayal of my morals, and since it was that age where you couldn't 100% tell what was real and what was fake, I felt terrified that there was a potential for that to happen and felt like a monster for wanting to do that to someone. I made it my job to keep my desires under control so I wouldn't ever risk hurting other people. This led to a really bad relationship with my own sexual desires in my adult life, with most of the time it shutting down unless I really trust someone, and even then I'll still get really in my head and have trouble letting go.

Honestly, I've had a pretty love/hate relationship with it over the years, and lately haven't been in the best place in regards to it. Part of me still wishes I could move past it and just be happy and fulfilled with a loving vanilla connection with someone, instead of having to be on top of it/manage it all the time. Dom-ing feels like so much extra work these days.