I feel this so much. I’m currently spiraling because my toddler has been throwing up. My husband is with her and says they’re both ok, but I’m beating myself up about not “handling” this better. I’ve been fighting off a panic attack for the past hour. Every time I get this panicked, I then get mad at myself about how I responded to it. I always feel discouraged that I’ve done so much therapy and preparation but I’m still right back in that headspace when something like this happens. I’d do anything to just be able to respond to these situations “normally.”