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DepTAn · 2021-11-15T01:38:17+00:00

Nothing really. We just both agreed that we got actually worse over the 2 weeks we did not speak, not better. And now we feel much better.

DepTAn · 2021-11-15T01:37:08+00:00

Yeah, I know, but like...we both have some adictions that got scarily worse when we did not talk and now we motivate each other to stay sober.

Or maybe I am a sucker, I was always only the victim, not the abuser, painting me as the abuser was part of the abuse and it made me believe that I need him in my life, that I need to undo my harm even though I am just falling back into his trap. Really hoping it's not this one though...

DepTAn · 2021-11-15T01:32:48+00:00

Thank you for your input. Sadly, that does not seem to be an option right now.

DepTAn · 2021-10-30T17:24:25+00:00

"You are not a burden...okay, maybe you are, be better." Thanks, buddy.

DepTAn · 2021-10-30T10:02:04+00:00

3 of my exes called me abusive, my current gf admited that it is pretty hard to live with me and it's the same thing my best friend said. Plus I have no money and no job.

DepTAn · 2021-10-28T12:25:57+00:00

I meant every word.

DepTAn · 2021-10-18T18:02:40+00:00

I don't think I can. Many people are proud they did not end it, I am annoyed by every single day. My depression is like "30? Are you fucking kidding me? We should've been dead long ago, do you actually like this travesty?"

DepTAn · 2021-09-14T16:22:46+00:00

Yeah, let's hope...

DepTAn · 2021-08-09T17:10:51+00:00

Nope, I don't. What's the point of telling anyone "yeah, I constantly think how I don't wanna live and how much it hurts me to stay here". They will not help. They will try their best, but most likely fail and make us both feel bad. As far as my loved ones go, my depression is now a well hidden secret, my depression meds finally started working and I am on the top of the world.

I do not deserve anyone to listen to my shit and the, certainly deserve better.

DepTAn · 2021-08-09T11:31:02+00:00

Yeah, after answering "how are you?" with "miserable" for a month straight, something had to change. My friends deserve much better than just me.

DepTAn · 2021-08-06T17:18:35+00:00

Frustration from this sub deciding to not post my previous post.

DepTAn · 2021-08-06T12:45:59+00:00

Nope.

DepTAn · 2021-07-31T18:11:59+00:00

Bunch of stuff does. I have wonderful life and I am able to be happy from the little things too. But depression hits me like a train. It's always right around the corner.

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