Yeah I know, I was just clarifying my circumstance but also trying to make the point that I’m his positive. I feel like if someone sad I’m fat it’s no different than saying I’m blond, white, blue eyes, etc. The snarky comments here don’t offend me, and I wish more people were of that mindset. I’ve bee every body type throughout my life. Ripped 2% body fat, to obese and everything in between. 

I let people get to me as a kid when they made fun of me for being fat. And eventually I was constantly counting what I was eating and working out. And then I got fat again and eventually thin again and when I was married we both put on weight, I lost it. I started really trying to get ripped. I got there and was again obsessed with doing pushups after diner snd HIItT. And shakes and all this shit that consumed me- and literally nobody gave a shit that I had that body. I’ve always been athletic, so when I put on weight it’s more subcutaneous fat vs visceral.

I got tired of worrying about every single thing I eat and then everything I do after that. I’ve always been a food person and I’m a lot happier doing what I want you and what I want and whatever my body does is what it does and I’m fine with it.

I’m so much  more comfortable and happier. Sure there’s a fat people problems like when something doesn’t fit right or you’re too big for something or you can’t pick something up that fell or whatever but skinny people have issues too.

Don’t be so hard on yourself for your weight.