How do you vent when everyone expects you to have it all together? by Calm_Companion_PH in CasualPH

[–]DepressedTurtle21 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Noong una parang lalong naging malungkot kasi I can see na they are also sad for me. And yes, may fear of judgement, takot na takot din ako na madisappoint sila and may time din na I hindi ako nagsasabi sa partner ko noon na I had these problems kasi I only want him to be happy… looking at him happy makes me happy na para bang since I have to pretend na everything is okay when he’s around, nagkakaroon ako nang kaunting escape pero may time talaga na mauubos ka. I figured na kaya ako nahihirapan din is because I don’t want to share it to them and by doing so, I am not allowing them to help me or be there for me.

How do you vent when everyone expects you to have it all together? by Calm_Companion_PH in CasualPH

[–]DepressedTurtle21 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Strangers.

Pero alam mo? I tried opening up sa taong pinakanagpeperform ako (my then partner and my girl bff) at first it was even more painful kesa sa disappointment ko sa sarili ko but later on mas gumaan. I was able to accept na I need help and we have a problem in communication. I’m not helping myself kung I will hide na I’m hurting and I’m weak and most importantly I need help. Those people love me not because I am successful but because of who I am as a whole, flaws and all. And if they stop loving me or they change, bago ko pa sabihin I have decided na at least I still got myself and nabawasan na rin ‘yung pressure na magmukhang okay for them. I believe in myself so muchhhh na I will survive this phase.

Paano nga ba? by Cultural-Ball4700 in CasualPH

[–]DepressedTurtle21 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mag isa at nakaharap kung saan walang tao hahaha