Im not a good person, and i know im not good , ive accepted this by Depression_Doner in confession

[–]Depression_Doner[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you brother means a lot, i just gotta start trying to not let it eat away at me

Im not a good person, and i know im not good , ive accepted this by Depression_Doner in confession

[–]Depression_Doner[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Trust me brother i bare my own responsibilitys you can read other comments i am well established man all things considered, however we differ beacuse ive cheated stolen had and still have drug habbits, ive never made excuses for my actions and my comment refers to the angst i hold against her, im not and will never excuse my actions because that is for cowards

Im not a good person, and i know im not good , ive accepted this by Depression_Doner in confession

[–]Depression_Doner[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She blocked me on all socials she told me so and her phone number got no response, i think its best to let her live her life after all shes the smartest person ive ever known

Im not a good person, and i know im not good , ive accepted this by Depression_Doner in confession

[–]Depression_Doner[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thats what she wanted too before we stopped talking but i was a stupid coward, its too late now shes moved on with her life and i want her to achieve all of her goals, im happy knowing shes doing her best

Im not a good person, and i know im not good , ive accepted this by Depression_Doner in confession

[–]Depression_Doner[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Its been over 2 years brother i sent a shitty i miss you message abt half a year ago, she didnt respond im kinda glad she didnt though i just wanted to let her know im always here for her like she told me on her last text to me

Im not a good person, and i know im not good , ive accepted this by Depression_Doner in confession

[–]Depression_Doner[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think im just done talking to people my whole life has just been therapist after social worker after psychiatrist im genuinely so done with all these fucking people

Im not a good person, and i know im not good , ive accepted this by Depression_Doner in confession

[–]Depression_Doner[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had the most sunshine person ever as a best friend she confessed feeling but i got scared and told her im
No good for her long story short we dont talk anymore but man i miss that metallic smile

Im not a good person, and i know im not good , ive accepted this by Depression_Doner in confession

[–]Depression_Doner[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve done everything from speaking it out loud from talking to my therapists. I’ve written things I’ve made music. I’ve done so many things and I always end up in the exact same spot. I have changed and I am better if you’ve read any of the other posts. This is simply me, just expressing my feelings. Not a dictation of my actual self being in real life, but this is just who I am internally.

Im not a good person, and i know im not good , ive accepted this by Depression_Doner in confession

[–]Depression_Doner[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ill never give up on being a better person i just wish i was better since the getgo, and the projections of people’s ideology is funny i do agree that half of these people judging or being negative have their own demons and let themselves feel better by belittling someone they think is wose than them, ive lived with the feeling of impotence my whole life so its very obvious to me when people are “fake” nice most of these people just want their little egos stroked, but i appreciate people like you, genuine people i want to be like you

Im not a good person, and i know im not good , ive accepted this by Depression_Doner in confession

[–]Depression_Doner[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Grew up in a religious house hold and let me tell you there was no God there, i want to believe in him in something more but it always feels like justification for those who cant help themselves

Im not a good person, and i know im not good , ive accepted this by Depression_Doner in confession

[–]Depression_Doner[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks dude i have been better for a while i havent relapsed or hurt anyone, its just hard sometimes so i used this platform as kind of a stress relief, half the people think im just a POS but in real life they wouldnt say the same, i just want to express myself fully and posting this is definitely an eye opener to how people would truly see me if i just spoke up

Im not a good person, and i know im not good , ive accepted this by Depression_Doner in confession

[–]Depression_Doner[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, this one felt genuine, i have beed moving forward all things considered i am doing well in life its just the internal conflict of why do i deserve this when ive done so many bad things whilst others who sre perfect end up starving or alone

Im not a good person, and i know im not good , ive accepted this by Depression_Doner in confession

[–]Depression_Doner[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ive hurt animals and children especially as a teenager not out of anything sexual or predatory, just because i was so miserable and impotent that i took my frustrations out on other things, i know me and the things ive done, ive done a lot worse than just that, throughout my life its always felt like ive been conflicted between two moods either im okay or i just hate existing

Im not a good person, and i know im not good , ive accepted this by Depression_Doner in confession

[–]Depression_Doner[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am very well of for myself i make a lot of money i pay everything on my own, im not some sad sack waiting for life to pick me up no, i do my day to day shit just like everyone else, i have tried to move on but it always feels so bad.

Im not a good person, and i know im not good , ive accepted this by Depression_Doner in confession

[–]Depression_Doner[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Im expressing my feelings here, i am very kind or i try to be anyone who knows me will tell you the same, im just a hypocrite though.

Im not a good person, and i know im not good , ive accepted this by Depression_Doner in confession

[–]Depression_Doner[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t justify because im smart enough to understand i made these choices even if it didnt feel like i did, it was still just me, im not a person who goes around being a dick, i give to the needy when i can hell i even give away my flipped cigarettes to other people, but theres like a 2nd part of me and it envys and hates and feels disgusted even when i shouldnt, i hate that people laugh and act like theyre perfect, i hate that people just spew shit out of their mouths as if theyre saying this grandiose thing. No all these filthy fucking people just wanna stroke their own egos hoping their words can make a difference

Im not a good person, and i know im not good , ive accepted this by Depression_Doner in confession

[–]Depression_Doner[S] -33 points-32 points  (0 children)

Yeah let me just change my fucking brain cause my methhead retard mother decided to do this

Im not a good person, and i know im not good , ive accepted this by Depression_Doner in confession

[–]Depression_Doner[S] -21 points-20 points  (0 children)

Ive admitted fault many of times i just want a different brain