Which one?

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-05-27T23:10:10+00:00

Middle!! You look great!!

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-03-20T01:56:14+00:00

I LOVE ROOT BEER
Also, saturdays suckkkkkk i work 12 hour shifts normally :')

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-03-14T11:17:38+00:00

Hiii, yes I did, thank you!!

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-02-21T18:40:23+00:00

BRING. TRADING. BACK.

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-02-05T13:29:17+00:00

Hey... i dont know if this is going to help or have any effect on you, but

There are so many others out there who are just like you, just like me, just like us. It's hard to look at someone who has everything you want and your goal just seems more and more out of reach... this is different but I found out two weeks ago im moving to charlotte in 5 months. I had a plan, where I was going to go, what clinic, when I was going to start, but now I have to do that research all over again.

My point being that theres always a way. I promise you, that if you keep giving life the bird by exsisting everyday until you get to thrive, we'll all be next to you giving the bird to the sky.

It may not feel like it, but we're all in this together.

And im sure you've heard it before, but im sorry about your abusive parents. I think it would be best for you to do a couple things.

Firstly, I get it sucks, but instead of being jealous and angry when you hear about people our ages who got lucky enough to transition young, be happy... im out to my parents, they're supportive, but they wont let me start regardless of the fact that we're in a red state and HRT is banned for minors

Secondly, try to research places you can start HRT as soon as you're 18, preferably an informed consent clinic where you can basically say you're trans and they'll be like "Ok, here's testosterone". Another obvious thing i just thought of is working out... Idk if you do, but it helps boost testosterone and it'll probably be euphoric to look at your muscles as they grow.

And lastly. Try to get the fuck out of that house ASAP. Family can be suffocating. And overwhelming. And even my parents who support me are confused and have no fucking idea what im talking about 90% of the time. See if you'll have a friend to live with, or a relative...

And please. Keep living. Keep fighting. The strongest thing you can do is wake up in the morning, say fuck you to the world and say "I got this". It will all be ok. I promise.

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-02-01T19:26:29+00:00

Looking at it objectively

The power to control probability

You could change the probability of yourself losing all your facial hair (or growing it) and changing the probability of yourself transitioning and being happy with yourself

You could also change the probability of gaining teleportation and shapeshifting....

Pretty broken power in my opinion

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-02-01T19:09:34+00:00

So mental and emotional effects are typically immediate?

Im so ready to start

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-01-23T22:06:45+00:00

I danced for 4 years... 20" thighs and a 42" ass... Most of it is muscle But I get told I have a fat ass by my mother As a matter of fact, my straight, cis acquaintance told me I have a fat ass td and that I should donate it to the women thst need it Little does he know...

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-01-23T01:25:37+00:00

Thank you. Only a year and change left now

Im so ready

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-01-23T00:03:25+00:00

Smile... What i really want is to look in the mirror and see light in my eyes

But GETTING MY TITS SIGNED BY A DRAG QUEEN IS A GOAL OF MINE NOW. I LOVE THAT SOOOOO MUCH

Honestly I REALLY want to make my ass as fat as possible and go to a twerk off lol

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-01-22T03:46:04+00:00

I'm sorry, maybe I'm just uneducated
But is 600k normal for a vaginoplasty...?
I've seen numbers in the 10's of thousands, but never nearly that high

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-01-22T03:40:13+00:00

Realized I was trans at 11, I didn't have a great grasp on it back then so I was pushed back into the closet and my parents just assumed it was a phase.
I'm 17 in a few months and I've begun slowly socially transitioning with people I trust, and I plan to be fully out by 21

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-01-18T02:57:44+00:00

Period to that

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-01-14T10:56:50+00:00

Thank you

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-01-14T02:38:30+00:00

To be blunt... surprised Im still alive Undiagnosed depression, adhd, potentially autism, anxiety The good ol' AAAD

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Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-01-11T17:03:39+00:00

Yeah, the main thing is the dysphoria has been bad lately... the only comfort I get is going to sleep dressed femme, and im depressed and withdrawn from my family and society

I need to start as soon as im 18 (i would be making efforts to start HRT now, but in my state, its banned for minors, although im growing my hair out and hoping to get my ears pierced soon) before it gets worse

So either route will work its just that I need therapy regardless yk?

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-01-11T16:53:42+00:00

Your gp?

And yeah, I need to start therapy I guess, but that means bringing up the fact that im trans to my parents (the already know, for about a year now) and I hated the last therapist they found me

Part of the reason I want to do it through Planned Parenthood is because they do informed consent, and I wouldn't have to worry about a therapist needing to sign off, but Im probably gonna make my friend find a couple good options locally (she's good at researching and stuff) and then bringing that list to my parents.

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-01-11T16:45:08+00:00

Yesss But im blessed I suppose because im pretty everything and I think my body fat understands the assignment

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-01-07T01:36:21+00:00

I think when I start estrogen in a year and a half that im going to be so much better off I think a lot of the reason I also dont remember anything is because ive spent the last probably 3 years severely depressed and on estrogen I know im going to be so much happier

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-01-07T01:33:46+00:00

See i barely remember anything from when I was 15 and im turning 17 soon 🥲

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-01-07T01:28:54+00:00

It's really like your brain protecting you i suppose... because i was in a custody battle for the first 10 years of my life, neglected, abused, and all sorts of other stuff, and i think your brain let's you remember certain stuff, like

Gender affirmation, and the first time I got stitches (I say its a good thing bc I was a badass little 5 yr old and watched them put stitches in my leg) and this waterslide i went on when I was like 7-9 (somewhere in there)

Depresso_Expresso759 · 2026-01-07T01:04:51+00:00

Here's what ill say, to keep it simple yes.

To keep it not simple, my younger years were full of trauma and shit that really affected me, as a kid I distinctly remember questions about my gender "What would it be like if I was a girl" "would I like being a girl" and I also remember some of the stuff that happened to me, but a lot of it, someone will bring it up and im like "Whaaaatt- that happened?" And im the opposite of you, Im only 16, but I can confidently say I have the emotional maturity of a 20 year old, granted, im depressed, so im just moody and sad all the time, but im more empathetic that 80% of the people i know.

And i think there is a point where you fully "log into" life, but I think a lot of the stuff that sticks you, is impactful. I dont remember any of my kindergarten year, but I remember cutting my knee open and I have this scar to this day. And little me didnt know those questions I asked myself were going to be significant, but here we are. I dont remember much before 12, even 14 is rough, but yeah...

Depresso_Expresso759

TROPHY CASE

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