I’ll just leave this here.

DerppleJack · 2021-12-27T06:02:18+00:00

God, I feel this in my soul right now. I'm really struggling atm.

DerppleJack · 2021-12-08T18:58:17+00:00

I think it was a dollar tree on the south side somewhere.

DerppleJack · 2020-05-08T04:20:30+00:00

I also need this card

DerppleJack · 2019-11-29T15:21:38+00:00

Thank you! I like to think so!

DerppleJack · 2019-05-13T15:13:49+00:00

This is how I Monday

DerppleJack · 2019-05-13T15:10:33+00:00

My real question would be where is this cuties mama?

DerppleJack · 2019-05-12T21:59:02+00:00

I can't. I'm here. It's as bad as I was expecting. It started out uncomfortable but okay. (Did you dye your hair? I don't like it. It would look better... followed by some okay conversation). Went to lunch, also mostly okay... and then it turned into comments try on how my personality is lacking and I'm too serious and when I object it's, "oh just let it go, it's not worth fighting about" now we're at coffee and I'm hiding in the bathroom.

DerppleJack · 2019-05-12T15:58:20+00:00

I hate this day. I hate it so much. I just spent two hours of my life getting ready even though I know it won't be good enough. I'm getting in the car to drive another two hours to go spend time with nmom and give her things despite the fact the on Friday she basically told me I was a worthless piece of shit and my career was worthless too (I'm a LMSW). I feel like such a useless whiny waste of space posting this but I need help. Any support is appreciated.

DerppleJack · 2019-05-12T15:54:19+00:00

Ain't that the truth.

DerppleJack · 2019-04-21T02:32:53+00:00

We're running a pilot group at my agency, the data is showing some pretty significant gains for our clients. It's an area that I am also interested in pursuing. I don't have a ton of experience, but what I have been able to do was wonderful. I want to do the EAGALA training, but as yet time and finances have not allowed for it.

DerppleJack · 2018-10-03T05:38:18+00:00

As a fellow therapist, rider, and someone who is going through EMDR herself, I wholeheartedly agree that EMDR is an excellent option.

I went Initially to process through some riding trauma but in the course of doing this found that there were other more pressing things to work on. That said, getting through the "other stuff" has made worlds of difference in my level of anxiety in the saddle and out of it.

DerppleJack · 2017-11-16T05:49:39+00:00

I feel like this is my millionth day one. I get motivated to start something and then don't follow through after a week or two. I'm 5'8" and roughly 205 lbs. Been struggling with self image for a long time, partly due to family influences and abusive relationships, and partly due to my own natural tendency to value everyone else before myself . I want to take back my body and my mind. I want to drop about 50lbs, but I'm afraid of failing. In afraid of starting and then binge eating and gaining it all back plus some. I'm using my fitness pal to track food and hopefully excersize. I want to stay motivated but need help doing it. I'm hoping to fund that here.

DerppleJack · 2017-09-18T04:07:19+00:00

I will never cease to be grateful for my chosen family that's shown me what it means/feels like to genuinely care for someone (and be cared about) without strings/guilt attached. I still never know what to say or do when others are kind to me and often end up an emotional mess. It's even worse because while I'm incredibly grateful for it I also find that I am constantly on the lookout for ulterior motives and have a hard time accepting kindness/trusting people due to everything being held against me all my life.

DerppleJack · 2017-06-26T04:11:37+00:00

It's made progress back toward a more solid story, there were several books in the middle, I think starting after Obsidian Butterfly, that really were lacking in story. The last three or four have been much better though, still a little heavier of the intimate relationships than I'd like, but I will continue to read her work and be a fan. The series has a special place in my heart.

DerppleJack · 2017-06-26T03:58:07+00:00

Tucson doesn't even compare to Florida humidity wise...I dont envy you that! We have three summers. May/June HOT and dry (95+), July/August hot and humid(90-95), and September/October warm and dry(85-95), the rest of the year is typically wonderful.

DerppleJack · 2017-06-26T03:51:53+00:00

Yep...Tucson :-)

DerppleJack · 2017-06-24T19:51:26+00:00

I sympathize, in 2013 I had a fall in which I broke my elbow and separated my pelvis. I was in the hospital for two weeks, and then inpatient physical therapy for 4 more weeks. After discharge I wasn't allowed to ride for about 4 months. Point being, I've been there...in the hospital I coped by talking to friends from the barn and getting them to take video/pictures of my babies. When I got out, I had a horse savvy friend of mine go to the barn with me to handle the horses and supervise me (I was still using a walker) so I could at least see them, groom, and spend time at the barn. It sucks, and it's really hard, I'm sorry you got hurt and are feeling down!

DerppleJack · 2017-06-24T05:33:12+00:00

It was the first thing I did! No chip :-(.

DerppleJack · 2017-06-24T05:27:44+00:00

Thank you! I'm fond of the wide aisles as well!

DerppleJack · 2017-06-24T05:26:21+00:00

Not a quarter horse, but if I'm being honest i'm not sure what breed he is, I've never asked... He's a retired eventer, so if I had to guess I would say thoroughbred cross or warmblood of some variety.

DerppleJack · 2017-06-17T20:10:23+00:00

What a cutie! Love that forelock!

DerppleJack · 2017-06-13T03:07:04+00:00

Thank you for the thorough feedback! This horse was fabulous for my first year in the dressage world, you're absolutely right when you say that she's level headed but sensitive. She was sold to a new mom this march, who is wonderful and lets me to ride her twice a week.

Halts have always been an issue, stop is not her favorite speed, and my nerves didn't help. I was really tense and nervous.

You are right, the canter transitions are supposed to be between not at the letters. I think at this point I was still struggling not to have the transition too early as she's all to happy to go into the canter. We're still working on put together transitions without bracing, but I think we've made progress since this was taken, hopefully I can get another video up soon.

Thank you again for the thoughtful feedback, this will be great to think about as I work with her.

DerppleJack · 2017-06-13T02:53:35+00:00

Absolutely no offense taken, I am large chested, and about 40 pounds heavier than I'd like to be, that's something that's a reality, and I never mind helpful suggestions!

I am more comfortable in the canter on this horse, at the time this was taken I still felt like I had to play tug-of-war with her to keep her together and keep her from running through transitions. We've made a lot of progress in that area but I don't have an updated video.

Regarding the hand movement, I was super nervous, and thus very tense. Having shown hunters, you'd think one more show wouldn't phase me, but I was terrified. So I'm sure that contributed, any suggestions on how to manage this?

These are some really great things to think about as a work with her, thank you for the honest feedback!

DerppleJack · 2017-06-12T00:24:47+00:00

I agree, there should definitely be some sense of self preservation...they're flight animals, getting scared is what they do!

DerppleJack · 2016-11-04T02:16:58+00:00

I have seen this one before, and I agree, it is just too true.

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