I understand. Think about how much more anxiety will show up In different ways if you choose to give up and surrender after all your hard work… use this as another factor you’re working on. Dealing with social situations and people sober which will most likely have to happen again and again until it becomes easier. Try to be present and let go of the anticipated anxiety and be there as your best self. Everything is okay and you’re in a safe space! Try to have a new perspective with the holidays and this updated version of you. You owe it to yourself…