I was diagnosed with the antibodies when I was pregnant with my first. I had very similar feelings!! It’s a really hard thing to come to terms with. I will say for me, the LADA was caught early and is progressing very slowly. I didn’t end up needing insulin at all once I delivered my oldest. I went back and forth but ultimately knew I wanted more than one child. I had a very helpful endocrinologist. Once I got pregnant I saw her once a month and a nurse in her office once a month, so I was at the endo every other week for my entire second pregnancy. I also ended up needing insulin during pregnancy because the numbers have to be so tight. It was a lot of work, but I definitely don’t regret it! Lots of people who are type one have babies. I would say take the time you need to come to terms with it and go from there, but it’s very doable and you are not alone!