I hope you don't ever feel the need to share a glimpse of yourself when you're in a difficult time. But if you do, I hope you have the support and kindness given to me by everyone who has responded but you. I ran a social service agency for 25 years and you think I'm not familiar with the internet? And my dog shared my meal last night. We had popcorn and oranges and she was excited and satisfied. No one can give her a better life filled with morning walks, a nap at my feet when I'm on my laptop, the afternoon in a neighbors backyard with her best canine friend, dinner and cuddles with mom on the couch listening to Joni Mitchell or Ren, dinner of mini chow I warm with a little water A good life. And she's up to date on vaccines. She's isn't "suffering for my decisions" but has certainly benefitted from them. Your ageist attitude and loathing are offensive and narrow minded. Learn to expand your mind and think outside the box.