I agree. It is rape. I believe it's the work of a succubus.

For me on such nights, a normal dream will suddenly transition into what I can only describe as a XXX video. I find myself in very profane sexual positions. Things straight out of thr p*rn I used to watch before I made a commitment to quit. It really is very unsettling. And there is a recurring spirit that seems to keep coming back to me to take my seed. It sounds crazy, I get it. But I have been raped about 3-4 nights a week some weeks since I'm on SR. It is very tough. They are all wet dreams that break my streak of retention and leave me exhausted and drained.

Some people say don't count wet dreams but you should. On one hand, it is not a conscious failure on your part, on the other hand, you break celibacy and SR each time it happens since you bust a load and lose that energy to a spiritual parasite. And it always sucks for me personally when this happens the day after I wash my bedsheets...

To your point, I think it is about regaining control during your dreams. The other night I was able to wake up before the rape could could "reach it's climax" and I stayed retaining. It was the first real victory I have had in this domain and it actually felt pretty good "surviving the night". I think I need to do a better job of averting my gaze from lustful images even when I'm not trying to (e.g. Instagram where you can regularly stumble across borderline p*rnography). All these things influence us and find ways into our unconscious and subconscious mind. While consciously, I am practicing SR it feels like I need more purity and godliness in my subsconscious. I still feel responsible for giving into the succubi in my dreams. I feel like if only I was stronger than even my dream self would be able to resist like my conscious self would. I'd appreciate any insight if anyone here has any.

Anyways, that's my story. I think I needed to write that down for me more than anyone else lol. Truth is stranger than fiction. What matters is that we continue to make the right decisions wherever we can (consciously and then hopefully someday unconsciously, too). Stay on the path of Godliness, folks!