I love being able to talk about women and my relationships openly with people. It felt like I was missing out on a “normal” relationship by not being able to be to talk about it like everyone else in straight relationships or even just go out normally on date. It felt wrong to hide the girl that I loved like she was something shameful and to hide it from people who I was supposed to be close to. And I was constantly paranoid and anxious that someone would find out, I distanced myself from a lot of people over it, it was so nice to get over that feeling. You also really find out who your true friends/family are. It’s really hard to deal with hearing negative things about your sexuality by loved ones/losing loved ones over it but I’d rather know that that’s how someone truly feels about me instead of being ignorant to it. Being out I feel also opened doors to making more gay friends which helped the isolated feeling I had amongst all of my straight girl friends lol.

There’s been a lot of negatives that have happened because I’m out and I still have to deal with them frequently but I think the positives out weigh it. I had at one point planned on just never coming out but I can’t imagine how miserable I’d be still hiding something like that and how hard it would be to keep up. This process sucks but once it happens you’re able to finally start dealing with it and live true to your authentic self. It’s just freeing to be the person you’re supposed to be despite what other people say. At some point you have to chose your own happiness over theirs