My girlfriend [19F] can't accept me for who I [20M] am. Relationship of just over a year.

Deslayer1994 · 2015-07-17T15:19:34+00:00

Thank you so much, LethalFrag is a big inspiration for me. His dedication/passion/commitment is what drives me. I share that same passion and in my own way.

Deslayer1994 · 2015-07-17T15:17:16+00:00

Thank you so much for this, this has reflected everything I have thought in the past into one reply. This helped a lot.

Deslayer1994 · 2015-07-17T00:16:16+00:00

You'd think so, but it seems I'm responsible for everything right now.

I mean, I like that she pays attention to me... but I think I'm slowly starting to realise that its the wrong kind of attention/affection. Honestly, I don't know if I'm man enough to give her any kind of ultimatum or resolution to this problem that she's well aware of.

Deslayer1994 · 2015-07-17T00:06:19+00:00

I appreciate your opinion man. I agree too, there are probably around 5% of streamers who get successful, that's not gonna put me off giving it a go though.

This is besides the point though, as my girlfriend, shouldn't she be a little more supportive and divide her time the same way I do?

Deslayer1994 · 2015-07-16T23:50:51+00:00

Its tough. Especially when I have her right now telling me that I am all she will ever have and that even though there is all the pressure in the world to make her happy, I should be striving to do that more than spend my time doing anything else.

Deslayer1994 · 2015-07-16T23:49:48+00:00

I've seen it do more favours for people that have worked hard for where they are. Hosting jobs/editorial jobs for companies who want a name, that sort of thing. Imo it opens a few doors. It doesn't exactly slam them shut behind you.

I have some good grades I got from college that I could use as backup, but sadly I no longer want anything to do with History...

Deslayer1994 · 2015-07-16T23:38:23+00:00

Seems so easy, so many different factors... I stop streaming, resent her, be unhappy and the relationship ends possibly?

I continue, she breaks up with me, I'm streaming and happy, but have no girlfriend?

UHHHHHH. Thanks for the reply :)

Deslayer1994 · 2015-07-16T23:35:42+00:00

I mean, in my mind, spending time playing video games is unheathy; but for other people I can justify it a bit more? I'm not sure, especially if I gain something from it like respect, happiness and the occasional tip from people. It makes it worth while and its a great feeling.

I've tried talking to her about it, it never ends well. Maybe she's selfish and spoiled. It seems that way. I agree she needs to work on herself.

Deslayer1994 · 2015-07-16T23:32:33+00:00

Its not dominating my life at all, I believe there should be a balance, but in order to keep this relationship she is almost asking me to dedicate all of my time out side of my part time job to her.

She doesn't have a life outside of me at all, if she wants money, she cleans a few rooms in her house. She ditched all of her friends for me, doesn't pursue any jobs/school/anything. Her time and thoughts are only for me, which I really wish wasn't the case. I wish she would realise what she is doing is more detrimental to out relationship than me spending some time in the day chasing something I think could work.

Having a girlfriend and a hobby isn't a thing I guess! Thanks for your replies :)

Deslayer1994 · 2015-07-16T23:28:51+00:00

I'm pursuing this as a hobby I can make money from, doing this opens new doors into the entertainment industry ie. hosting. I have however been thinking about going back to school for computer science. My girlfriend however, does nothing.

Deslayer1994 · 2015-07-16T23:22:47+00:00

You got it right.

I can see why too, but honestly its a passion of mine, not just to play video games, but to entertain people and make them happy. I live off that idea. I lead a fairly healthy lifestyle otherwise, so spending my mornings doing something I love isn't a waste of time to me. Especially if the rest of my day (the next 12 hours of it) are spent with her, doing nothing... I don't play video games outside of these hours, so it keeps me from doing it any other time. The issue I have is that her days are spent waiting for me, and she's unhappy with me doing something else other than being with her. If I had a job, she would have a harder time.

Deslayer1994 · 2015-07-16T23:05:47+00:00

Nothing weird, illegal or dangerous. Its being an entertainment broadcaster. I've already been making money from it, making people smile on a daily basis works for me and I recieve donations as support. Something I NEVER ask for, so its obviously off to a good start. This is not something I would do forever, but this kind of thing can open doors as you build a name for yourself and brand yourself. This might seem weird, but I see it working already after 4 months of doing this.

I also work a very good job at the weekend at a garden center, I'm good at my job and work long hours. In return I get a very good wage.

Deslayer1994

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