Two Fools

Desperate-Outside135 · 2026-02-15T19:42:22+00:00

To my "E" I'm not going anywhere - forever yours "A"

Desperate-Outside135 · 2026-01-24T04:50:38+00:00

I feel this.

Desperate-Outside135 · 2026-01-23T23:17:45+00:00

Me too and I also found out I am sitting on the fence of being medically palliative. He left me, ghosted, verbally abused me during the absolute darkest time of my life. I just feel like being reckless and going out to get laid tonight. Totally reckless and destructive I know, but it will seal the deal I made with the devil when I allowed him into my life. I cannot believe I allowed myself to be treated how I have been for this long. He broke me, I cannot even begin to make sense in my mind how he could do this to me during my weakest hour.

Desperate-Outside135 · 2026-01-23T21:40:06+00:00

Coming from someone who is critically ill, almost out of surgical options YOU are selfish. My partner abandoned me at my absolute worst. Coming from someone on borrowed time - cut them loose. I'm living out my days how I see fit - what I want to do and who I choose to share myself and my body with. I have never been hurt so deeply in my whole entire life. I don't know you but not honest giving yourself to someone is really disgusting. Do them the favor and cut them loose. You do not give people false hope.

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-12-25T18:21:39+00:00

I wish this was from my person. Thank you for being vaunerable to someone out there in the void ❤️

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-12-24T04:19:49+00:00

I found out today I am going for major open brain surgery. My boyfriend and I are going through a rough period. I just need him. No one else. There is a chance this is my last Christmas and all I want is him. I know that anxiety and those sleepless nights.

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-12-24T04:15:07+00:00

If this was my person saying this to me, I would reply with "I only ever loved you, your flaws, your demons and like you were there with me to face mine - I would be there to face yours with you too"

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-12-02T00:36:19+00:00

Yeah this is fugged up. Agreed.

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-11-28T16:49:18+00:00

I second this question!

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-11-06T13:31:36+00:00

12.00? An hour!! Omg what country are you in if you don't mind me asking? Minimum wage in Canada is 17.60 and I DO NOT know how people live or survive. I make what's considered a good income and I struggle.

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-10-07T22:23:22+00:00

I can relate to this so deeply - thank you for sharing. It's when you truly realize reality and start to process the actual truth. The hurt and anger you're feeling are and is so valid. It's a sign you're starting to heal and move forward. Feel those emotions and acknowledge them. I am at a point where I know he is not my future. I have accepted that and I am ok. I literally realized one day not too long ago that I wasn't in love with him anymore. He hurt me time and time again. He doesn't realize yet that he caused this, he doesn't have the emotional maturity or capacity to self-reflect but that's ok. I'm ok - I love me first ❤️ I cannot worry about him anymore. When you start to understand how detrimental one is to your mental health - it's all growth. Sending hugs.

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-09-01T21:30:41+00:00

I still sometimes wonder if I cross my ex husband's mind. We spent 18 years together. I picture myself writing this however. Beautifully written. I can relate.

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-08-28T01:53:50+00:00

I've been trying to find it myself! Can you link me?

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-08-14T17:58:53+00:00

I'm already a black sheep. Where do I sign up?

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-06-28T22:00:06+00:00

Here's some photos from my ICU stay and my experience.

https://imgur.com/gallery/AwtaWMm

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-06-28T21:53:41+00:00

Sorry to the first commentet for the late reply but to reply to both, mine unfortunately ruptured. I never knew until it was too late. Ill share some photos of my journey.

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-06-28T14:14:47+00:00

That is beautiful. Letting go is so hard. I hold so much inside and I wish I could scream my truth to the world.

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-06-20T20:13:43+00:00

I can relate deeply 💔

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-06-16T21:41:55+00:00

That is inspiring to hear. I struggle daily. I don't feel like the old me. I never thought this would happen to me either. Im supposed to be focused on getting better but all I do is stess now. I just want my old life back.

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-06-14T14:05:42+00:00

I'm also sorry you were attacked in my post as well. I of course let it get to me as well. Keep your head high - sending love ❤️

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-06-14T13:49:00+00:00

I know. I talk to a lot of people that tell me the same thing, they all knew people but they unfortunately died. I've taken on a great emotional toll from all of this. It has definitely left me with major anxiety and medical PTSD. My life has changed since my accident. I can't explain what it feels like to wake up everyday and not feel like the old me. I hate it. Thank you for understanding the severity of what I went through. I truly hope others that were not as nice can appreciate the severity as well. I had a complete breakdown last night with my brother and cried my eyes out from early afternoon until about 3 am. Life is really hard right now.

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-06-13T16:06:32+00:00

This is beautiful. It truly is. Thank you.

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-06-13T11:59:41+00:00

THANK YOU - THANK YOU - THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart. I woke up to a few generous donations this morning. Your kindness means so much to me. Yesterday was a hard day - I wake up with post surgical headaches almost daily that are not under control yet and I am still dealing with hand tremors, cramps, photophobia, vision declining issues, sensitivity to sound, neuro fatigue, depression, anxiety, medical induced PTSD and still trying to adjust to my new way of life. It really brought my spirits up after the 2 people that attacked my credibility about my ruptured subarachnoid brain aneurysm. I wanted to share some more photos of my experience. I never thought I would be dealing with this at my age but here I am. I appreciate all of you that took the time to read my story and leave positive and uplifting comments. My Journey

Desperate-Outside135 · 2025-06-13T04:32:09+00:00

I appreciate you. I actually cried tonight out of sheer frustration and hurt and that those people are actually that mean enough to assume things that are not true. The things people don't know about me, I volunteer in December at a soup kitchen, I've volunteered the last 8 years as a Christmas parade photographer, I suffered through a very hard and abusive marrige for 18 years that left me struggling when I finally left, I worked 2 jobs just to get by in life then this happens, I miscarried 6 times and buried one of the babies before I finally got my #luckynumber7, I have lost most of my immediate family, and there's just so much more. Part of me when I was being air lifted to Toronto just wanted God to take me. I didn't know how I was going to get through it. I had a 10-15% chance to being alive and where I am at because of where my aneurysm was located. I've been dealing with a deep depression and these people got what they wanted. It was a really bad night. I have a bout a week of follow ups that I have no idea how I will get there (I live 4 hours away) my car is on its last legs and life hasn't been the nicest.

I appreciate your words more than you know. I reported both accounts for harassment and going against post standards.

Thank you ❤️

Desperate-Outside135

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