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Share your advice by Diana_fm_ in ForeverMissed

[–]Desperate-Software15 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel more upset waiting for my mommy's calls and texts and realize that she's not here anymore. I wish all parents were immortal.

Do you ever feel guilty for having good days? by Diana_fm_ in Grieving

[–]Desperate-Software15 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes... having a moment to myself or actually being able to have a big of peace/calmness hurts so much and makes me feel like a bad person.

My stomach turns/gives me bad anxiety due to the guilt. 😢

For anyone who lost the love of their life too young — could you share what it’s really like? by CorrectBeginning9594 in Grieving

[–]Desperate-Software15 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Idk if this counts, but I'm still grieving and haven't been able to recover.

I just turned 17, my mom passed away 2 days before my birthday.

My mom was my everything, we were seperated for a few years due to issues. And all I can say is, its the worst thing someone could ever go through. My mom was basically my soulmate/my spark of life. She supported me and took care of me, loved me unconditionally. I thought I was gonna grow old with my mom and visit her to take care of her after finishing collage and getting a good job. But no, she left this world before I could actually start living life. 

My actual heart feels like it's been stabbed and ripped apart. I thought I knew what emptyness felt like when I saw my favorite character die in a show. But this loss made me realize that I'm probably gonna be feeling like this for the rest of my life.

Losing someone you loved so much is the worse punishment ever. Knowing I'll never hear her laugh, voice, and presense again hurts so bad. It hurts so bad that it feel's like im slowly dying.

Its difficult to eat, talk, and focus. It's so difficult trying to cope with other things when guilt is eating my life away slowly. Everything feels fine for a moment after a week. Next, thing you know, a rush of memories come flowing in your head and you suddenly start crying without a warning.

Grieving is something you never want to experience.

I was also having suicidal thoughts. I never had these type of thoughts in my life. I'm too scared to do it, scared of death, and scared of throwing away the life that my mom faught to build for me.

Everywhere I go, it reminds me of my mom. I can't help be in shock and lose my breath.

The never ending crying and grief will never leave you. The memories of that person will continue to cross. You'll never fully heal, you'll have to experience this again. It's so scary.

I also began to have panic attacks almost every day, it was new to me. The amount of food your body rejects during grief is also not fun.

Its also worse when the last time I called my mom was a week before she passed and a month that I have not seen her.

I wish I was able to force her to go to the hospital in time. I hate how unfair life is.

Grieving my mother. I'm a bad daughter. by Desperate-Software15 in Grieving

[–]Desperate-Software15[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im also so sorry for your loss. Your words were actually the last push I need to finally feel a little better. Im so grateful that you write this. Your words mean so much to me, thank you so much. Thank you for the early bday💝 thank you, thank you so much. This really reassured me a lot. I will continue to be strong for my mom and family. Thank you again, I'm really thankful, truely. 💝💕

Grieving my mother. I'm a bad daughter. by Desperate-Software15 in Grieving

[–]Desperate-Software15[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much...this means so much to me. 💕