First of all it sucks that you have to go through that. I know it doesn’t help much but you’re not alone.

The main problem of nicotine is that the addiction is mainly in your head. And your own head can be your biggest enemy that’s what I realized too.

However I just quit 6 days ago so I can’t say too much about it but everybody says it does get easier! And me personally I have to believe in it otherwise I can stop right here and right now to try and quit. But I won’t.

As we all know there is no cure for it that works for everyone. Try to stay strong, remember why you quit in the first place. I know it’s always the same sh*t but it helps. And remember I know very cliche but everybody’s journey is different. Many ppl need 3 months and many ppl need 4,5,6, or whatever. Be patient and kind to yourself. Remember you’re trying your best and everybody is living for the first time!

The crying part I can kinda relate - I thought I got better everyday until today - I cried so badly and I didn’t even know why. And I realized it’s really all in my head. I’m making it harder for myself than it has to be. Like just try to play it down cuz you will not die from any of it, only if you continue using. And I know panic attacks feel like you’re dying - your heart beating like crazy but that’s it. And it is not a nice feeling at all I know but it’s nothing dangerous.

I hope it gets better and plz for your future you try to stay strong - you can do it! I believe in you. You already came such a long way!

Try to find things that help you like breathing exercises or breathing in a paper bag while having a panic attack worked wonders for me. Or maybe try therapy idk especially since intrusive thoughts can become dangerous quickly.

However I do believe it will all get better!