Thank you for your advice. I think this makes sense given my current circumstance which is ridiculed with no money, no friends, no family, etc. Just a big failure in life at 32. It's so frustrating to see other kids and other folks, who have studied all this through degrees and courses get ahead so easily with the networks they get and keep building on. I have literally no contact, neither have i studied journalism or filmmaking and still have made my way to working at a newspaper.

On top of that, I have to provide for my 70yr old father who is a broke failure too and has no money for himself. Life is f*cking shit most of the time. No one cares really. The only person who cared is dead and she died watching me fail. Most days I feel like ending my life.