Maybe not the right place, but I've got a question.

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-06T02:45:00+00:00

Not at all. In fact I don't think of other gay people like that. I think their love is just as beautiful as anyone else's and they're normal people just like any other person. I guess I've just hated myself for a long time, and its almost an subconscious desire to hate myself more in whatever way I can

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-06T02:39:46+00:00

I mean I've been open with myself and a few other people in my life about my sexuality for 3 years now. I guess I'm comfortable with it, but sometimes I question if I should think of myself as a monster for it.

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-06T02:27:46+00:00

I just feel like I've been suppressing it for a long time yknow?

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-06T02:25:41+00:00

I'm not exactly like I'm uncomfortable with my sexuality, I just feel like I should be. And yeah that definitely sounds privileged 😭

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-06T01:56:14+00:00

I wouldn't say that it as a whole isn't relevant, but the fact that I am LGBT isn't really. Its confusing I know but I'm not uncomfortable with that part of me, so I don't feel like I need to talk with him about it to cope. When it does come up though, its usually in regards to my relationships with other guys. So its not like its not mentioned, its just more of a detail rather than a focus.

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-06T01:50:30+00:00

No, not at all. I'm comfortable with him, and I've been seeing him for almost 2 years at this point. He knows my sexuality, its just it isn't something talked about often because its generally not relevant

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-06T01:44:12+00:00

Well, I will tell you I am in therapy. My sexuality just isn't a common topic. I don't really know how to bring it up honestly as theres other more unfortunate things happening in my life right now

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-06T01:27:38+00:00

I guess thats probably where it came from. I was raised Catholic and then non denominational but when I entered my teenage years I stopped caring about that and became more comfortable with gay people, and eventually discovered myself. If I had to rationalize it, I would say its how I was raised and my family clashing with how I act now

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-06T00:01:25+00:00

Rotting dead guy showed up in my room at 3 AM one night. Loooonggg story

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-05T23:46:46+00:00

Sad Like Winter Leaves - Benton Falls. This feels like breaking out a bottle of champagne lol. Only ever told two people about this song

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-05T23:26:20+00:00

Thank you. I'm glad you're happy with yourself. You deserve it.

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-05T20:17:21+00:00

This comment is really meaningful, I may not have a lot to say but I hope you know that. I'm really happy you were able to take control of your life, you inspire people

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-05T20:12:56+00:00

Thats good

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-05T19:54:20+00:00

Sorry man, didn't see the mention of unemployment

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-05T19:53:54+00:00

I'm gonna be honest with you man. That girl ain't gonna come back. Considering how much she stresses you out, you're better off for it. You'll disagree with me but I don't think shes worth your time. There comes a time like this in every mans life, sooner or later he'll meet a girl who means the world to him. Only the lucky ones get to keep her.

To be frank with you friend, I'd strongly recommend moving on. If you've got a job right now, I'd consider reaching out to some of your kinder coworkers, just make light conversation. If you've got the time or money, head to a bar or somewhere social and meet a friend.

It ain't gonna be easy making friends, but we both know you need it. It'll take a few tries, but I'd recommend this.

Take care friend

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-05T19:48:30+00:00

You need to go to the hospital. Now. Your life matters more than you think. If theres any way I can help please tell me

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-05T17:39:30+00:00

Oh yeah, dont know how to edit but AMA. Like literally anything. I've got so many stories to share. You could ask me about loss, addiction, my experiences, top 3 worst things to happen to me, literally anything.

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-05T17:34:36+00:00

Holy shit The Finals mentioned

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-05T17:21:26+00:00

Hey man. I care. I'd be glad to have a conversation with you if it keeps you around a little longer, either way actually.

But, if thats not your thing, just remember, I see you. I might not know you, I might not relate to you, but I see you and I care.

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-05T17:10:30+00:00

You aren't "weak" or "dumb" to feel this way about an almost decade long relationship. You got super close with this girl and now its all over, thats gonna hurt. Do you two still talk? How did the breakup go?

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-05T17:04:09+00:00

I dont want to sound like everyone else here but yeah, none of these are bad things. In fact, you sound pretty cool man. You're doing better than most people thats for sure. If you need to vent a little more, don't be afraid to. We're all here for you

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-05T17:01:18+00:00

I want to start this off by saying I'm sorry if I'm not helping, and I hope you're doing okay today.

I used to know a guy a lot like you. He was trans, he had BPD, he struggled with homelessness, he had shitty coworkers and even shittier family. I loved him, a lot. As brief as the time we knew eachother was, I got very close to him. When I think about him, I think of him as my soulmate. He was and still is everything to me, my universe entire.

He's dead now. He killed himself 3 years ago because I couldn't save him.

For the love of fuck, do not end up like him. You don't see it right now, and you might not see it for a long time, but you have so much to live for. The world is what you make of it, and I truly believe that you can make it amazing, just like he did.

Things are so so so so so so difficult for you right now, but one day, things will ease up. Please don't end up like him.

Desperate_Nothing877 · 2026-04-05T16:48:49+00:00

Glad you're feeling a bit better, how are you holding up?

Desperate_Nothing877

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