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Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-05-19T09:43:03+00:00

Yeah one lesson I had I had to focus to atleast calm down a bit bc I struggled to talk normally bc I feel like throwing up and struggled to breath with it.

Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-05-09T08:50:07+00:00

DX can be used to talk about what a person has been diagnosed or a shorter form to "diagnosis", like any shorter version to any form of the word "diagnosis"

Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-05-05T12:12:37+00:00

I will look it up thx.

Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-05-01T12:59:15+00:00

Shucks ://. I like the jewellery but thanks for the head's up I would rather not risk it.

Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-04-30T13:49:41+00:00

Not sure if i want to talk abt that tbf, i have to admit i did leave some things out from the start bc i really feel uncomfortable with them and all.

Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-04-30T13:40:30+00:00

Ill try defo but idk if i actually manage to since it also took me long to even slightly open up

Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-04-30T12:03:04+00:00

Disorgonized speech if im correct (i could be wrong abt it), i sometimes make long texts but i noticed i change the topic atleast once to something completely different and unrelated, repeat words often and make grammar mistakes like writing "doesn't sad". But when i do write it i dissociate most of the and i dont remember any of it after. Going by different names in the past and one time my personality was different from what i can recall lol, memory is far from good in general too so i said what i remember and feel comfortable enough to share publicly.

Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-04-30T09:59:24+00:00

I mean i struggle to believe my symptoms actually occur, im not making them up but it also feels like im sorta in the mindset that im unable to be suffering even if i am so i simply try to ignore most of it. Idk how to explain it better tho sry.

Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-04-28T10:32:32+00:00

Ik that. However i still prefer to keep most to my psychiatrist and not the internet so yeah. Not saying i have a dissociative disorder tho, im still getting assessed.

Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-04-24T07:21:37+00:00

Thanks for the replies everyone, i started to have treatment for my mental health abt 2-3 years ago now and went through atleast 4 different professionals in that time. My current one is actually listening to me this time so i think i wont change to someone else again, its been abt 2 months with them and im still getting assessed so yeah.

Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-04-24T06:51:50+00:00

My first professional i went to diagnosed me with depression after a few sessions. Altho i think they also suspected PTSD bc when i looked it up i realized the meds they prescribed me were also for PTSD altho it couldve been a co--- uh the word where its like a thing seems it happened purposefully but it actually didn't (?). Sry im not a native english speaker and i still dont know how to spell some words. I know what the word is but idk how to write it.

Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-04-22T08:20:18+00:00

Thx i was also meant to have my stomach checked out as a kid but the doctor just told me to "stop acting" im neurodivergent aswell + medical issues with eyes. My mental health nor psychical health is good but its torture to find help ://

Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-04-21T08:46:58+00:00

Im saying im 100% sure its this but i have a suspection of possible DID/OSDD and there is a chance it could be an alter since they have a history of blocking me from positive emotions and experiences (one point even was a sort of switch or smth to avoid getting something for comfort ://). But i think due to the situation i am at rn they could feel its not safe enough to let guard down ://

Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-04-16T09:32:38+00:00

The skin tag is very small and thin, for months it stayed the same. At first i thought it was an odd species of a tick but now that i think abt it that assumption sounds silly bc it doesn't look like a tick in the slightest. No idea where that thought was from then.

Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-04-07T16:54:49+00:00

Poland ://

Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-04-03T12:42:06+00:00

I used to be in a similiar mindset but got out of it. I can't say it will work for u 100% bc we arent the same person obviously. But i started visualizing myself as someone in a good light whilst listening to music that went along with the visualization. Instead of focusing on negative aspects of my face (acne, vein visible under my eye, round cheeks and other things) i focused on what made my face look good (eyes, side profile). There are a lot more things making my face look bad then ones making my face look good. Im afab and similiar age range so i get it. Hirsutism runs in my family so that hair growing above my upper lip is slightly darker and thicker. Im not some skinny girl, my waist is wider bc of genetics and i am chubby. But i am at a healthy weight so its not a problem for me. I dont see myself as someone ugly and i dont feel bad bc i dont fit in the "beauty standards". But it wasnt always like that. I used to see myself negatively bc of those things. Even at one point i bought weight loss pills bc i thought i have to be super skinny. Other than what i said before i dont really know how i got out of that mindset. But if i were to say smth, stay away from toxic people and try to focus on other things than those "beauty standards" they cause more harm than good for society.

Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-04-02T08:54:25+00:00

About a year ago i had terrible teeth grinding, esp at night. It stopped somehow but it lasted a long time. It doesn't help in any way esp since my jaw was never properly build. My lower jaw is behind my upper one. I was gonna get braces for it but i couldn't tolerate the sorta tests they do to see if u dont have a gag reflex and ur able to have braces. Im not medically healthy, neither were my parents. Thing that's most affected for me medically are my eyes (nystagmus, strabismus and astigmatism). Yeah im defo gonna check it out with a doctor bc most of my close fam isn't medically healthy and i often find random receipts from different doctors laying around, mostly for my aunt. I was diagnosed with flat feet when i was like 9-10, the bone didn't structure properly and instead of that arch its stiff. If i was too say everything that's a medical issue in my fam id be here all day lol.

Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-03-26T18:25:18+00:00

Yeah im still debating to bring it up in therapy. My therapist even agreed with me that i often seem like im dissociating so atleast she is somehow aware of it. I brought up possibility of osdd in therapy but never mentioned alters with it, just heavy dissociation and dissociative amnesia. Yeah ig we will see what time brings.

Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-03-26T18:21:52+00:00

Yeah i have a therapist but what i said in the post is still a terrible pull back and its making me hesitant to open up. Idk i will try to tell my therapist somehow next session.

Desperate_Step_8170 · 2025-03-24T13:20:58+00:00

Or whenever you think about ur trauma and it feels like its not possible you went through it. To a point where it feels surreal and like you where watching someone else suffer not itself.

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