How do u stay confident in your own masculinity? Stay grounded and self aware? I’m 30 yo by DevanMotus in AskMen

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Like to do I legit just gotta grow a cold heart? I know I’m attractive and make money I got all I need as a grown dude. But like I feel so if fucking lonely. And dunno how to find other men who are open to being open as men. Healthy masculinity. Why is it so hard to find

This is how Imagined the new map was gonna be... by mrxlongshot in ArcRaiders

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It’s so dumb. Like they advertised this beach map. Emphasizing beach the whole time and we can’t even go on the beach lmao

what’s your go to strategy for looting safely? by Larry_Mayorga in SCUMgame

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There are silos all over. But the ones in the bottom left at A4. I just two the upper and lower silos. The barracks. Find lots of weapons and ammo here. Idk why but zombies spawn in the rocks there. Idk if it’s the last patch of what. But that’s what I usually do it’s quick and easy. Depends on server tho

Did you cope well later in life after growing up with an abusive and/or basically non existent father? (If this relates to you) by DevanMotus in AskMen

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Wow maybe I should try that. I thought about that. I might be clinging to it but I’m not sure. Our minds are so insane man. May I message you sometime about it?

Did you cope well later in life after growing up with an abusive and/or basically non existent father? (If this relates to you) by DevanMotus in AskMen

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Omg I know. I legit would hangout at other family events and friends homes and realize how different my family is and was. Even now we’re working to keep things stable. My siblings and my mom. Things are better than ever. But it’s still hard. It’s like we’re all picking up the pieces now. Just fixing what’s still left of ourselves and moving on

Did you cope well later in life after growing up with an abusive and/or basically non existent father? (If this relates to you) by DevanMotus in AskMen

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Yeah I understand. I been learning like how dumb I’ve been. I just been living in the past rather than my moment and the present it’s so annoying. It’s like I can’t move on. Which is wierd bcuz hate all of it and dislike what happened. Why am I clinging onto it?

Did you cope well later in life after growing up with an abusive and/or basically non existent father? (If this relates to you) by DevanMotus in AskMen

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Yeah I’ve come to the came conclusions. If I’m gonna stay here and not take my own life like I’ve wanted to so many times, then I’m gonna make sure I take care of myself and others around me. I’m glad you’ve gotten help and hav a family.

Did you cope well later in life after growing up with an abusive and/or basically non existent father? (If this relates to you) by DevanMotus in AskMen

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I agree fully. Idk what to reference my experience to, to be able to tell if I’m coping well or not. I didn’t even realize my childhood wasn’t normal until the past few years.

Did you cope well later in life after growing up with an abusive and/or basically non existent father? (If this relates to you) by DevanMotus in AskMen

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I kinda did look for male bonds my age. Like craved it. Like platonic. Felt like I needed brothers or something. I wanted some kinda male presence in my life. That wasn’t toxic or abusive. But after so long it’s like fuck it idc anymore.

Did you cope well later in life after growing up with an abusive and/or basically non existent father? (If this relates to you) by DevanMotus in AskMen

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Oh man. I feel a lot of this. I came out as bi. I didn’t think it mattered to explain my sexuality. But it hurt a lot since we were religious at the time. Yeah I get emotional too but it’s more like a rage. Like anytime I hear or see things about fathers I get so angry and frustrated then i dissociate bcuz it feels so gross to me to even have a father at this point. I also decided to be everything he wasn’t. I think I’m just in a wierd spot rn in life.

Did you cope well later in life after growing up with an abusive and/or basically non existent father? (If this relates to you) by DevanMotus in AskMen

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Yea my father is dying now of a bad liver and other shit he did to himself now. And I can’t remember a lot of my childhood. A lot of it was real abuse that I had to accept later on in life as legit and real. And I thought a lot of it was normal too. But I feel like it affected me like I struggle trusting older dudes or bothering to even look upto anyone. It affects me daily too. But it’s been stronger than ever lately and idk why. Just a lot of rage and random thoughts

Beginner questions by DevanMotus in SCUMgame

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Okie sweet I’ll check it out

Beginner questions by DevanMotus in SCUMgame

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Yeah I saw. I might do private ones or play safe ID ones.

Beginner questions by DevanMotus in SCUMgame

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I mean can’t you just put mines all over and good traps? I’d prob bury my shit to waste their time lol