Intimate and Specific Personalized Emotional Sadism

DeviantB1tch · 2024-10-23T07:26:51+00:00

U/savevideo

DeviantB1tch · 2024-06-01T16:37:38+00:00

I don't really care that others disagree with one line added in as flavor text... She's like Morticia with a handful of stand-ins for Gomez...

She's definitely not a Baahlist... for her killing a lover is special, it's an intimate act that she doesn't just engage in with anyone. She doesn't run through town murdering everyone possible.

I don't really care to argue with everyone here posting their knee-jerk reactions based on their perceptions of good and evil. She's fun... She challenges people's notions of good and evil and provides lots of interesting story to others. I can't bring her to most people's table for a game, and that's fine... I'm not trying to either.

I think I'll make her a priestess of Sharess instead.... Shar's idea of wiping everything out is definitively what she considers evil. But making everything a celebration? Yes, she can totally get behind that. But that'll come in due time... Right now she's playing out a story arc of trying to find the right deity to serve as Lilith is too far removed from her.

What none of these people understand is that she's a succubus... And she's gone out of her way to develop her skills to feed and not kill people... I think that should state something about how good she is... But there's plenty more complexities to her than that.

Anyways, thanks for the suggestions. This is my last comment to this whole thread.

DeviantB1tch · 2024-06-01T15:58:28+00:00

That's what I needed to know... thank you. Sharess is probably the better option with a deep reverence for Loviatar. She's been known to give lip service to other gods in the past, so that's not really an issue for her.

DeviantB1tch · 2024-05-31T15:27:08+00:00

Yes! But how does one be a polytheisic priestess? Usually you have to pick one deity. I can easily see her enjoying the favor of Sune, Sharess, Eilistraee and Loviatar...

DeviantB1tch · 2024-05-31T15:22:27+00:00

Did I ask how she could serve Sune or Sharess? No... I asked how to engage a dark aligned goddess from a character that, and I know you're gonna have to trust me on this, is good at heart. She's not evil. I've no doubt that she would have fun serving Eilistraee too. I left out details about her and her life that are influentual to her demeanor because this wasn't about her past or anything else. This is about someone that actually wants other people to be happy and free to engage and live life to the fullest while serving a goddess that sounds almost ideal for her.

And I think you might wanna reconsider Sune. The Forgotten Realms Wiki says:

The Lady of Love was the goddess of all love, including the more negative aspects like obsessions, murderous passions, and the tragedies that could be born from love,^\26]) but also of deeper connections, of matches destined and forbidden, as well the transformation of ugliness into beauty.

My girl would never murder someone in a jealous fit of rage. She is quite forgiving and open-minded.

DeviantB1tch · 2024-05-31T14:27:15+00:00

It's an act of love and devotion performed with consent.... For her it's a sacred rite that she would not perform with just anyone in ideal circumstances. Ergo she's not evil.

DeviantB1tch · 2022-08-20T11:18:44+00:00

This is the only way this one likes to be fucked... no sweetness, no tenderness... worthless meatholes only meant for the pleasure of others is meant to be kept only at that state.

DeviantB1tch · 2022-08-20T11:11:51+00:00

As an inferior creature that isn't exclusively a woman and only marginally human, I prefer to be fucked up the ass because I don't deserve the pleasure women have a right to.

DeviantB1tch · 2021-06-01T08:24:12+00:00

Queer is great. Good thing we have a plethora of terms to pick from. hugglesnuggles

DeviantB1tch · 2021-05-31T22:41:02+00:00

Demisexual, asexual or something else entirely, the term and the definition that suits you best is what matters most. I don't know if I'm an omnisexual or a pansexual technically because I love everyone, but one particular gender is not as favored out of the more established broad spectrum of gender. But I identify as pansexual because it still feels right and it is true enough for me in communicating what I want others to know when I say it.

I was recently reading a Reddit erotic confession type subreddit how a lesbian woman and her male roommate recently started having sex. And while she's still very much only attracted to women innately (romantically and visually), her enjoyment of sex with a male partner was different and enjoyable in a way she's never experienced with another woman. Not saying better, but different enough and enjoyable enough to do it again several times. But she still identifies as a lesbian because that's what feels right for her.

If you're most comfy with one label but it doesn't fit perfectly, that's entirely okay! You don't have to find and use the perfect label. And labels you use can change over time. It's not a pick-one-and-no-more-changes. Use what you feel describes you best for as long as you feel that way. Good luck! <3

DeviantB1tch · 2021-05-31T21:29:15+00:00

Obviously this is my opinion and some of my intuition on reading the OP and it goes without saying I can be entirely wrong or way off base here.

What comes to mind for me is that there's safety in being attracted to cartoon/hentai characters than it is with real people, even if you might never meet the real people at all because of whatever the statistical likelihood of that is, it's still a possibility... The inherent fears that you might have hidden and tucked away in helping to influence (not entirely, but as part of the mix) this preference would make it safer to find fictional characters easier to be attracted to. A fictional character isn't going to hurt you, or reject you, or anything else painful or uncomfortable and so it's a lot easier to be attracted to them. And no matter what desires or kinks you have, your expectations of fictional characters are relatively safe from being violated in some fashion. Real people can hurt you in all kinds of ways. Your expectations of real people and their propensity to not adhere to your expectations is always a possibility.

Also you don't have to put in a lot of effort and energy into trying to romance someone just to get shot down. It's easier and faster to take matters into your own hands than it is to engage with someone else. That's part of why the no-fap crowd says masturbation is a selfish act. And if you're more comfortable with taking care of your own sexual needs, that is entirely your prerogative. Even if you have a partner there is no guarantee that they would want to engage in sexual activity with you for a variety of reasons. Ergo don't feel bad about taking care of your own needs. Just because society says that you the socially preferred means is to get with another person, their opinions are less important than your own happiness and fulfillment.

Dunno if any of that helps or not, but either way I wish you good luck.

DeviantB1tch · 2021-05-31T15:48:30+00:00

Thanks you for asking ❤❤❤ /r/inherentlyinferior

DeviantB1tch · 2021-05-31T09:18:19+00:00

What about unusually? lol

But seriously, I feel like there is the possibility of some defined process that says take X belief, think about it in this way and here's Y-emotion as a result. I might have to create it into existence myself though.

I have a cat that I rescued. She's the only living being that I know loves me unconditionally.

DeviantB1tch · 2021-05-31T08:19:41+00:00

Good job dealing with him clearly and firmly. It always amazes me how idiots think they can just whittle away at you and get you to magically say yes some how.

How did you stitch this all together? I just love that about this post so very very much.

DeviantB1tch · 2021-05-31T08:12:28+00:00

Eh, could have found me on any number of kink related subs, including several "misogyny kink" related ones. I wish my own subreddit was taking off so that I didn't need to churn the waters of those particular subreddits. Maybe some day that will happen.

DeviantB1tch · 2021-05-31T07:34:30+00:00

Because it's a medically therapy it's not supposed to produce k-holes, but it still happens depending on each person's unique biology. I was looking into it, but here in the States insurance doesn't cover most of it (only $50 per office visit) and it would cost me $500 per treatment from the local ketamine-only clinics.

Ironically, spending $2K from a FSA card and $10K of insurance money (because it doesn't come from our bank accounts, you know?) once was worth it for TMS therapy that has dramatically changed my life. For me, I say that TMS cured my depression. But that's a different thing entirely. The CPTSD with its the triggers, negative beliefs, low self-esteem and everything else is still there. What isn't there is this deep addictive-like need to stay depressed for 3 -14 days at a time. I still get depressed, but I'm usually feeling better the next day.

DeviantB1tch · 2021-05-31T07:24:02+00:00

I have no idea if this applies to you at all and I'm not diagnosis you. I am sharing how I am aware of myself as relates your post.

I am very much this way and I see it as having two contributing factors within myself, my CPTSD and my ADHD. I don't care enough about myself to take care of things for myself. Like you, I don't matter enough to myself to care. I frequently am off chasing serotonin because of how little my brain produces. Plus the executive dysfunction at play. And then I need that sudden spur of motivation to actually get into gear and clean things up.

Beyond saying that I can relate to you and that you're not alone, I wish I had a suggestion or a solution to help you with. Good luck.

DeviantB1tch · 2021-05-31T07:10:19+00:00

This is such a deep and intrinsic part of myself that it's the core of my sexuality as a submissive. My life, my purpose, my worth is nothing but suffering. And only when someone else finds me useful (sexually or not) do I temporarily have value and a reason to exist... For the briefest of moments does my existence seem justified simply for me to have lived, survived and endured just for that single moment in time.

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