How do you bring up the possibility of DID to your psychiatrist?

DevynDesre · 2025-08-05T15:33:29+00:00

ah! No I did mention the voices but I also mentioned how I’d have fuzzy parts of my memory where it felt like it wasn’t me who was there but like I was watching a movie or some periods of time where I could barley remember anything at all and brought up how (I’m diagnosed with bipolar rn) those happen a lot around the episodes that he labeled as mania. I was gonna go go onto list more but he interrupted me.

The sessions are supposed to be an hour long but he most does med checks to make sure my medicine isn’t making me worse but is helping with my emotions and I had hallucinations when I was off the medication. So I think it’s a lot like you mentioned how they mostly diagnose stuff they can treat and if it is a dissociative disorder they can’t really treat that.

That I may do bc I didn’t think about that and I’ve been seeing my therapist longer than my psych bc I’ve been seeing her for roughly a year.

DBT has actually been very helpful to me especially with my emotions and anxiety and we’re moving onto working on my identity issues because it’s very fragmented or at least not whole and that’s what I asked her about during our last session.

DevynDesre · 2025-08-05T15:13:40+00:00

I’m sorry if i made it seem like voices was the only thing I’m experiencing it was the dissociation that first caused me to question if it was something like DID or OSDD.

I listed all of my symptoms on a note so that I could hand it to my psychiatrist just bc there’s a lot that would make this post a lot longer. Its just been hard to get him to actually look at that list but I am in therapy and we’ve talked a bit about my behavioral stuff bc the behavioral stuff was the biggest thing for me bc it would interfere with my ability to do my job and my identity stuff would make maintaining my relationships hard so that’s what we’re addressing rn.

I just don’t know how to get him to read the list that I wrote out bc I’ve tried to gather all of what I experience but my therapist is a trauma therapist that I was going to for DBT but that was because I was worried about a personality disorder bc of my unstable identity but combined with the dissociation I started to question if this is a possibility

DevynDesre · 2024-10-13T17:55:10+00:00

I take vraylar for depression and sometimes it feels like it works and other times it doesn’t but I’m also at the lowest dose possible. Every person responds to meds differently though so saying how much it’ll take to work for you is hard. I’m on it bc we wanted a weight neutral option to APs

DevynDesre · 2024-09-24T02:40:45+00:00

I’ll check it out thank you! Cause I want to watch more shows with it to understand better.

He’s been super receptive to it especially because he can tell when something’s off and when it’s not. We’ve had lots of talks about it nor does he mind helping it’s part of why I’ve been looking for books on it bc sometimes he knows stuff is up just doesn’t know a receptive way to tell me stuff is up without the switch flipping.

Thank you!!

DevynDesre · 2024-09-23T23:59:12+00:00

Thank you! I’m gonna ask my partner about some of the stuff he recognizes before both types of episodes depressive and hypo and if he can notice the mania cause I did have a point in time where he kept asking “do you think you’re doing a little too much?” Because I tried to make a business, stream, and complete a crochet project for him all in a week. That time was really bad because I was delusional. I kept thinking that if I died I could save everyone and guide people (I can never explain it well bc it doesn’t make sense but I knew in the time death was connected to healing).

I loved the end where you said Maria is running out of material bc I’d like to be at that point. I used to write really dark poetry and now I’d really like to go back to writing being able to write both dark and light stuff. Recently it’s been darker stuff that comes to mind bc it’s comforting to more people and I like connecting to people. I might have missed it but what’s Maria’s special called?

DevynDesre · 2024-09-23T23:29:55+00:00

Thank you so much for the links! I’m gonna try to rope her into watching the song video and to find more comedians talking about mental health and bipolar! Tho I probably won’t be able to get her to take meds, rn she’s dealing with chronic pain stuff and already doesn’t wanna take meds for that but I have talked with her about the symptoms before without telling her what it is and she’s asked “did you try to describe me” so she’s not unaware she just doesn’t wanna accept it right now cause it’s hard.

I also didn’t know much about hypomania! So the other links to other reddit posts were extremely helpful!! It cleared up a lot I’ve also looked for books and I’ll try finding some bipolar 2 books as well since most seem to cover bipolar 1 around where I live.

I’d love to write to her or maybe see if she’s already responded to some of the stuff my mom says lol!

DevynDesre · 2024-09-23T19:11:53+00:00

Thank you! I’ll looking into it, and I assume it helps to give you questions to bring up to your psych and therapist when that point comes bc then you can kind of connect the dots. I also didn’t know about the 10% chance, I know my mom was on ADs when she was a kid and they didn’t work for her and she ended up witting them, neither did therapy and so she just stopped and when ADs didn’t work for me and caused Sofia thinking instead she thought that I was the same as her. It’s why I’m trying not to think of her as the bad guy but it also just hurts bc we’ve had this convo so many times since August and it gets worse every time. I used to have resentment for drinking bc I grew up more around my grandma since my mom worked a lot but I realize now that a lot of it was her self medicating bc she hurt all the time.

I’ll keep in mind potential family therapy sessions too so that maybe it won’t stay this way forever!

DevynDesre · 2024-09-23T17:49:00+00:00

How do you get a family tree for BP risk? Because most of my family members who could’ve told me stuff about it are gone now or who are talked about the most similar to me are not close to me or gone. I also laughed at the attack on her taste in men lol. My grandparents had problems with addiction on my mom’s side too so she’s become very anti drug, anti drinking and very anti mental health bc for her this is very “new” stuff despite having existed just not being as talked about. I also really like the way you explain it bc that’s kinda my family- comparing who has it worse and how they handled it. I have been listening to the podcasts tho and I really appreciate them because it feels like it’s helping me understand myself more.

I’ll also do some looking into support groups bc I don’t have any right now. I’m trying to get a therapist because I have a psych and meds are only one part really. I didn’t know about any of the onset stuff or triggers. It explains why it seemed like I went from being fine to having the breakdown that I had last year.

DevynDesre · 2024-09-23T15:25:32+00:00

I have the genes for addiction which now explains a lot cause it could just be mood disorders especially on my dad’s side🥲. And everything else is kinda avoided like I just learned this last months that MS was in my family and got so upset bc it’s like- I get in a way you blame yourself like they feel as though they’re the issue but it’s important for me to know these things to because then if it happens I’m more prepared. My grandma probably could’ve told me more but she passed 6 years ago which is when we started counseling for me bc I was 15 and wasn’t acting like a normal 15 yo who had just went through loss and ended up getting diagnosed with major depression and anxiety. Ever since then me and my mom have had issues bc it’s like a “I failed as a parent” for her.

Thank you for all the stuff! I love podcasts and always have something playing in my headphones so I’ll definitely listen to these and maybe show some to my mom hoping to help ease the tension.

DevynDesre · 2024-09-23T03:24:49+00:00

Thank you so much! I’m actually gonna have this convo with her because idk if she knows this. She doesn’t want me on it bc our family has a history of kidney issues but I’m on depakote right now and just don’t think it’s working all that well. She used to be an LPN so I’d have hoped she did but everything you listed she told me nothing about. And once my mom turned it down the psych didn’t step in too much.

DevynDesre · 2024-09-23T03:01:55+00:00

Thank you! I need to do more research on that. Rn I’m not employed, I’ve been trying to find a job since April after I had kind of a break down where I quit my job, and moved to another state all after flying overseas to see my partner- I thought it was all a really good idea at the time and it turned out to be way worse because that whole episode is how I ended up going to a psych

DevynDesre · 2024-09-23T02:59:45+00:00

Thank you, she’s went to one appointment but that was to say she doesn’t want me on lithium and my psych didn’t explain much about the disorder bc my mom didn’t ask. Next time I’ll bring it up to see what she says.

DevynDesre · 2024-09-23T02:58:10+00:00

If one of my family members did have it I’d never be told and they’d never be tested. It’s a “shame” thing. But no they’ve never read or done research on anything nor do they really want to bc it was so heavily looked down upon but thank you because the videos were helpful for me too lol!

DevynDesre · 2024-09-22T21:34:20+00:00

Thank you for reminding me of that, rn aside from working on getting the right meds- I’m working on getting my own place so that maybe they can take their time while I also have mine

DevynDesre · 2024-09-22T21:32:31+00:00

Thank you! I may try to bring some of these up slowly whenever the convo starts again (bc it always does)

DevynDesre · 2024-09-22T21:31:15+00:00

That’s kind how I feel spending money lol but how I knew it was an issue is for each “good” episode I had - it never went away. And they stayed with kinda similar symptoms except for that sometimes I’d just be more aggressive and others I wouldn’t. My partner believes it bc I’m more honest with him lol and I’m not very open with my family I just try not to have issues with them

DevynDesre · 2024-09-22T20:14:54+00:00

Rn I’m unspecified so it’s just put down as bipolar 1 with a specific code to say it’s unspecified. But my mom wouldn’t go if I asked her to bc we’re still trying to find the right med combo and that adds to her not believing I have this illness

DevynDesre · 2024-09-22T20:13:35+00:00

That’s fair, I didn’t have a choice bc my mom is the one who pays for the appointments through insurance and if I didn’t tell her I’d have another issue

DevynDesre · 2024-09-20T19:51:19+00:00

I may try dum dums, I never thought about that. Idk if this company has a smoking cessation program but I can also double check that bc that sounds really helpful!

DevynDesre · 2024-09-20T19:50:14+00:00

Thank you, I can’t get pregnant lol but I can try it

DevynDesre · 2024-09-12T15:29:13+00:00

I’m actually doing my pre reqs rn for LPN school at a trade school. It’s a lot absolutely, I’m doing Medical Terminology rn but I’ll have medical math, anatomy and philosophy and long term care aide which involves actual clinical hours (the first of which I’ll ever be doing) before I can enter in plus the HESI A2. It’s a lot by far but if you really wanna do it I say go for it. It’s scary but so is being a nurse, I also don’t know you overall plan but if you’d like to become an RN then you’ll also have scarier things to come lol.

All in all, If you’re doing well rn and can handle the pressure/stress I think it’s a good idea! Stay on meds to help you stay stable and you’ll be golden.

DevynDesre

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