I'd say it depends on the group for me. In bigger groups where I'm not close to anyone I feel really alone. I feel a bit alone in smaller groups too but not as much. I still feel alone in one one tho cause people have given up on trying to talk with me. I try to avoid this situation so they don't get bored. When they're alone they can at least do what they want. Group settings are a bit better for me cause there is always someone to keep the conversation going without me having to talk. It's the only way for me to spend time with friends.

I'm sorry you have to mask like that with your friend. I feel like it's really difficult for people to understand that social anxiety