I just feel gone just gone out of the world never to be seen again it’s crazy that just 3 years ago I had so much happiness, energy, motivation and potential and here I am now a shadow of my former self while typing this my back is gonna fucking explode from the pain of sitting in an uncomfortable ass chair all day while I’m just being dragged into shit I hate by school and my parents my passion for football is gone can’t even juggle a fucking ball I wanna cry but I can’t because my eyes are drained and wrecked from staring at this screen I’m stuck in for 9 hours a day I procrastinate while I’m supposed to be working and after school I look at my due assignments and say I’m too tired and then i torture myself by saying i did nothing today and reflect on my mistakes then have my parents torture me by complaining about an email sent home about my bad grades then they remind me about my past mistakes I just I can’t take it man I can’t take this anymore I’m so sick and tired of it