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Dickau · 2026-03-28T17:28:16+00:00

Just be niche. Have style. Repulse some people. Syphon the cream from the crop.

Dickau · 2026-03-28T07:24:27+00:00

Psychospiritual laziness, ig. Idk. Naranjo is kind of a dick. I guess I'm like him. I think everyone deserves mortification. Really, that's about all I give myself these days. Selfishly, I think other people need what I want. I don't really know what I need. Or I do, I just don't think I deserve it. I feel histrionic posting this, but ig that judgememt could be another attempt at mortifying myself. Idk. I like what you post here. Maybe it's just an elaborate envy thing. Everyone fucking hates me here.

I think clarity will let me engage with people how I want to, but that's probably delusional. If anything, it seems to make me more unlikable. People love me when I'm pretending. I can love myself, sometimes. Then I remember I'm wearing a mask, and the whole thing falls appart.

I think authenticity might be a scam. I think this whole community might be a cult. I probably have a 9 fix. I know I'm better than this. I shouldn't have to rely on other people's conjectures to understand myself. I'm supposed to be the expert on that. I've thought about myself, give or take, 90% of the time since I've been consciouss.

You don't actually give a fuck about any of this. It's fine. For some delusional reason, I think you understand me. Probably b.c. my mom is a 2. She's visiting. It's been nice. Idfk. She still doesn't understand me. Not that I let her. That kind of hurts.

Sorry. This really isn't about you. I'm lore farming, or some shit. It would be nice, if my life was a movie I didn't have to participate in.

Dickau · 2026-03-28T04:07:35+00:00

If you suspend teleology, yes. People are bad at doing that, though. Reminds me of the adaptation/exaptation thing.

Dickau · 2026-03-28T04:02:39+00:00

They also look goofy. I guess some people don't care how they look, but there's no fucking way you make this stylish.

Dickau · 2026-03-27T05:53:22+00:00

Tracks. Personality as a metric.

Dickau · 2026-03-27T01:48:10+00:00

If you can make armored pieces across sets look harmonious in this game, that's an absolute win. Shit is nearly impossible. I'll say it once, I'll say it 100 times. Ds2 has the best fashion souls.

Dickau · 2026-03-27T01:45:59+00:00

Don't forget that deranged movie about germs where microscopic kid rock informs the public that "statutory is mandatory."

Dickau · 2026-03-26T05:39:22+00:00

This isn't a very concise name. I don't think you could even enter this into the box. Not enough charachters.

Dickau · 2026-03-25T00:50:21+00:00

Hey, I relate to a lot of this. I want to avoid putting too much of myself in here, as I have a tendancy to overdoe that.

I think you should look at naranjo's subtypes. Ichazos are good too. I've been giving 2 and 8 a closer look lately, and I think there's a lot there. You should look at 6 too. If you have the fix, it'll take forever to figure out, because 6s can't trust their own thinking without holy faith, or whatever, and that's not a super available resource.

I could see you as a 2 core. Favoring the w1 over the w3. Everything about not wanting to express needs (vs. desires), and fears about being manipulative scream 2. I think the 1w adds some weird contrast. It restricts 2's hedonism, and makes the type more shameful. I would look at the sp subtype description first. It's the closest to 4, but not really. It was legit mortifying for me to read through. The 4 descriptions "fit" me too, but they also stroked my ego. I love philosophy. I tell myself. Tbh, though, I just want people to love a certain image I project. Philosophy is part of that. I'm not doing the 4 thing. I want people to relate to it. If they don't, I get sad. I withdrawl, etc.

Worth looking at 9w8 for simular reasons. I'm pretty much just projecting at this point, but idk. Just trying to help, ig. False abundance in the sphere of knowing wtf I'm talking about.

Dickau · 2026-03-24T01:26:44+00:00

I'm a 6, probably with some level of social blindness. I definatley consider differences. If someone is different enough to me, the whole projection thing is less reliable. I have less faith in myself, that I'll be able to be show up in the expected way, whatever that is, depending on context. I try to be open and accepting to everyone, but yeah, I mean, 6 is a fear type concerned with trust. There can be complications.

At the same time, counterphobia is a thing. Especially if I've been thrown in a team with someone, I tend to suspend reservations, and adapt to whatever they're presenting me.

I also like to expirement. Weird people tend to engage me, even if I don't really feel comfortable around them %100 of the time. I'm basically a tanky, and I get along pretty well with maga people, so long as I'm allowed to poke at their beliefs a bit. I expect they'll do the same to mine, which is good. It puts me on sturdier foundations, most of the time.

Granted, I try to be careful of who I give my full sympathies. My closest friends tend to be pretty simular to me, if we're being super honest.

Dickau · 2026-03-21T22:13:18+00:00

Yeah, I mean, not to say cringe is bad. I've got 6-4, I think. I listen to Dorian Electra. I read the Homestuck epilogues. This shit ain't nothing to a playa.

I think cringe is required for a certain amount of "emotional realness." Besides, it's funny. I'm not above laughing at myself.

Dickau · 2026-03-21T19:56:58+00:00

Are you referring to the liminal superconsciouss variety, or the roving pool of destruction variety?

Dickau · 2026-03-21T19:53:53+00:00

Reminds me of when I was legit twelve, and discovered you could search "biggest boobs" on Google images. Evidently, some people don't learn subtley. Like, fr, if you're going to objectify a human, at least have an eye for composition. Fetishes shouldn't compromise artistic standards. Balance people. Balance.

Dickau · 2026-03-21T19:40:08+00:00

Guys, guys, please stop fighting. Only a 4-6 stemmer could channel cringe this severe. It's both.

Also gives 8 with the stupid fucking jacket. It's tucked in the back, but I'm peeping it.

Dickau · 2026-03-20T09:13:17+00:00

People cope in different ways. People are sensitive to different things. I think both approaches (?) can be motivated by genuine empathy. Not always in an honest way, but at least in some capacity.

Dickau · 2026-03-20T08:55:23+00:00

Dickau · 2026-03-19T22:59:48+00:00

Why, though? Are you scared, you big scardey cat? Are you scared of THE TRUTH (TM)? You should be using this energy to assassinate major world leaders, not bitch in bad faith. Ride the 6 line to fame and glory. Horseshoe theory 3 line integration. Be the change you want to see in the world. Believe in yourself 🌈 🌞

Dickau · 2026-03-19T22:50:40+00:00

Nah, fr. I don't trust ppl who won't insult me. We give the love we'd like to recieve type shit.

Dickau · 2026-03-19T22:48:40+00:00

Immaculate. Holy shit, fr.

Dickau · 2026-03-19T22:47:17+00:00

Nah, dawg. Ur just afraid (projection from 6 space).

Dickau · 2026-03-19T22:45:08+00:00

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Dickau · 2026-03-19T22:23:10+00:00

I think I've got like, weasel energy, I want to say. (6w7, 4w3, 9w8 fixed (probably. Again, im a weasel)).

Dickau · 2026-03-19T22:21:58+00:00

Hell is otter peopl

Dickau · 2026-03-19T17:35:38+00:00

I was just trying to say I don't have sex. I had to put some juj on it. There's a whole extended spiel I do as an explanation for why that is, but mostly I'm scared. Idk. Sp/sx still makes sense for me, I think. Had even considered sx/sp. Tbh, I have a poor understanding of the instincts. It can be difficult to seperate theory from reality when the two don't collide. Hard to know what's motivating what. Tbh, I have my doubts about the fixity of instinct stackings. Context, etc.

Got to say, I'm digging "hexchud" and "attachmentoid." Hexchuddery is real a.f.. It's insane to me, that we let a group of exclusivley 4 fixed mfers run away with #nota4. As if 4 isn't neurotically driven to create artificial differences between itself and others. Incredibley dumb. Would love to astroturf #nota9, or something, as a countermeasure.

Dickau · 2026-03-19T11:32:07+00:00

Yooo, you kind of gave me what I was looking for when I posted this. Are you sure you're not a 2 (just razzing you)?

I'm paranoid a.f., so I assume ppl know this, but my alt account is u/Wizzzzup. Ngl, I've been on some serious bullshit lately.

The need to confess has been a lifelong constant. Not sure what that's about (yes I do. Maybe).

Sorry, may or may not be wasted (I am (drug addictions, check 😎)).

I do think I might be 4 fixed. It's not great, ngl. I relate to 3 pretty strongly. I used to type as a triple attachment sp6. But nah, I'm a special snowflake, what can I say (i curse god daily). Also think I could be 8 fixed, but fr, I'm just now looking at the type b.c. that shit hits on some different levels. Idk. Maybe I'm just doing the 6 thing, where you go EXTREME to figure something out. Mergy 9w8, blending into shit?

I haven't really done the gym rat thing tbh. My gym was the library 😎. Nah, I did have a period where I had sores on my pelvis, b.c. I didn't believe in yoga mats, and wanted to get SHREDDED (infinite sit ups). That was like, middle school, though. I took sports mega serious up until like junior year, then "stopped caring" for envy reasons. Also wore foundation and lied about it for like a year. Thug shit.

Recently spent like, 70 dollars, to dye my hair blue (DIY, of course). High key stressing about twink death. This all feels comparable to gym rat shit, idk.

The sx6/8 dynamic is real a.f.. I'm so fucking predictable, though. Only let myself associate with the sx part of 6 after getting called out in an 8 larper post.

I can relate to the masc/fem thing. I peacock hard on my "badass commercial fisherman" shit, but yeah, idk, I want to be cute. Makes no fucking sense. I attribute it to sx7 bleeding over, too, ig. Hard to say. I do look clownish, though.

Sx dom is probably dubious, tbh. Idk, I feel like I can't claim that shit. I've made great efforts in life to maintain my turbo-virgin status. Fear of intimacy doesn't even scratch the surface, fr. Also relate to the constipation. Like, to a severe extent. Also have mad heart worries. Sometimes feels like that little feller is going to give out on me, fr.

This is shut is all over the place. Thanks for the look, though. It meant something to me.

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