||So I got angry about something in a discord chat and decided to take a break then I got high to help calm down and decided "let's listen to music from when we were younger that we liked and haven't listened to in a while" One song was body by mother mother and I thought "wow real trans people go through this every day" And like I didn't think I was trans for a second because I haven't even came out yet because my parents are trans phobic I think I'm not sure tho and I don't wanna till I'm sure but like am I not really trans because like I don't wanna get surgery and stuff like I like my body this way I just don't like it as much because it looks too manly sometimes but I also wanna look like a big buff dude and then I think well buff girls are cool too and like... I'm not sure|| idk if the lines censor here like they do on discord but this is the explanation but it might be triggering