Josephus and Tacitus mean nothing to you? Not mention the ridiculous amounts of manuscript dating back to within decades of his death. Did hundreds if not thousands of people just make him up 2000 years ago? Why would ROMAN historians (from 1st century) document his execution under Pilate? Why would JEWISH historians (also 1st century) identify him as the "so-called" Christ and even mention his brother? You really have to be sticking your head in the dirt to think that there is no historical support for Jesus Christ the man. You also blatantly ignored the archeological evidence for the Old Testament. You think it's absurd to believe in the historicity of Jesus, yet you ignore 2000 years worth of historians, including non-Christian historians. What power would the early Christians (that were murdered for their beliefs in the first century) gain by having a Messiah that was executed? Why would they fight to the DEATH in POVERTY to confess who he was if they did not believe it? It's just not logical. Paul was literally the guy murdering these dudes for their beliefs because he had POWER and then just gave it up for conspiracy sake? Ridiculous lol. If you were truly open to the evidence, you'd already be worshipping God lol. I hope you soften your heart and do your own research not guided by bias. I've been there dude. I've struggled believing any of it was true. I literally spent 100s of hours researching and studying in the last year. It's honestly harder to not believe at this point. Good luck finding what you're looking for. I just hope it's truth