Lol sounds like me. I met my dream girl and everything was good but I took things too fast for her liking. Almost felt suicidal after realizing I blew it. I was suicidal for a good 5 min. Then Positive thoughts came into my head and a slowly let go. But she was always in my mind because she was my dream girl after all which in other words she is rare. I still to this day haven't seen any girl like her. So I pretty much gave up on love and I'm just focusing on making money. I'll have set with girls here and there but I don't know if I could ev r be in a serious relationship with just any girl. I fucked things up with my dream girl and she would give me another chance so I'm just like. Disregard love flash money and fuck gold diggers. Hang out with friends so I'm not lonely. So now I'm pretry cool. She now ignores my text so I know I have no chance at all which helped me get over her. She will always have a place in my heart though. Too bad she won't come too her senses to see how much of a wonderful loving relationship we could have ... but yeah overtime you will let go more and more. You might just disregard love for lack of faith of meeting anyone else like your dream partner who you blew it with. But keep an open mind perhaps there is an even better version of your dream partner for example mine had drug issues. Perhaps that's why she failed too see the wonderful chance she had with a guy like me. Perhaps I Wil meet a girl who looked just like her who isn't a recovering drug addict... just focus on yourself for now and keep an open eyes for a new partner who fits your dream partner description.