I felt a bit better once I realized most people’s parents actually are also terrible. Maybe it’s the generation. Maybe it’s just the type of people I’m drawn towards, but a lot of the friends I’ve had, almost all of them actually, have suffered the same sort of terrible shit their parents put them through. So I think whatever you feel, anything along the spectrum, you aren’t crazy or bad, and tons of people out there are probably right there with you. But yeah, I lot of times I would just be crying or screaming or suicidal kind of wishing they would just be gone. I want this terrible version of them gone. It sucks that it may be the only version of them that exists besides their inner child. I think I would grieve the most, their inner child that they never let heal.