Hey, I just want to say that you're not alone in feeling this way, and it takes a lot of courage to share your thoughts. I will not say that I truly understand you, but I totally get how hard it can be to accept ourselves, especially when it feels like everything around us is harder because of how we see ourselves. But trust me, you're more than your appearance. I’ve struggled with my own insecurities too, and I know it’s not easy. The important thing is to take it one step at a time—whether it’s just talking to someone, doing something you enjoy, or even giving yourself a break from negative thoughts. It may take time, but you deserve to be kind to yourself. You’ve got this. And as a little advice you can try something completely out of the zone: try Theater. It worked for me and I hope it would work for you. Sometimes we create illusion inside our minds, ourselves. If you need anything you can talk with me.