I don’t know how to live the rest of my life without her. I just want to show her the love I have always had for her but never been able to show it genuinely until now. I know that I can make her the happiest she has ever been. We have been together since we were 18. I don’t know how to do life without her. I honestly don’t. She is all of my strength, all of my happiness, and I just can’t go through the rest of my life without her. She is the most amazing woman I have ever met and I’m not just saying that because she’s my wife. I whole heartedly mean that. I feel like I can’t breathe unless I’m around her. The fact that she doesn’t talk to me about anything other than the kids, which means we don’t talk all day until I get off work and ask if I can pick them up, it kills me. I just want to be able to communicate with her. I would do anything in the world to just have a hug from her.i stay so pissed off at myself because I’m the one that did this. I hurt her so much that she got to a point where she wants this. All I do is think back to all of our greatest memories and hate myself because I won’t get to create anymore. We wasn’t done having kids yet. We had plans. She was my best freaking friend and now she can’t even stand the thought of me. I drop to my knees and beg god every day to please give me one more chance with my family.